If you have followed my life since June you probably know that I was a participant in Stranded. A missionary survival training that I can honestly say to this day changed my life completely. I was basically put through a week of hell where God broke me down, and showed me things about myself that I never knew. One thing God showed me while I was there was that I’m actually terrified of storms. Something about storms never brings peace to me, and they honestly freak me out. Another thing that was also revealed to me after climbing a tree and spilling my heart was that I tend to view myself as the weakest link. That I never see myself as a strong person. Not just physically but mentally, spiritually, and emotionally. In that moment I decided to view myself as a strong person and I realized that I am a strong person. Yet since then I still have a hard time keeping that mindset and the past couple of days have been really hard. I’ve had the best/worst week of my life and I couldn’t thank God more for that. As I was sitting and letting the words of the enemy get to me, one of our squad leaders started talking about listening prayer and how we were going to do listening prayer and put the papers in a bag and pick one out to just show how God can give us words for a person and get them to the person who needs those words. When I open the piece of paper that I picked out of the bag I quickly read the words on the paper to see what the Lord had for me.
Basically the vision that this person saw was me standing on the top of a building with a storm approaching and I was scared to stay on the top for very long. Yet the Lord was telling me that I needed to wait out the storm and the rain because the rainbow that will come after the rain will be way worth it. Then at the end it said three short words. You are strong.
Obviously in this moment the Lord was stomping out all the words from the enemy and showing me that I need to return to the mindset that I am strong. That I need to return to finding my strength in Him and waiting out the storms that hit me in life because what will come after with be worth it.
So much has happened since we have been here and honestly I’m having troubles putting my thoughts into words. Please pray that the Lord will give me the words so that I can continue sharing all the Lord is doing on this journey! More blog posts coming very soon! Check out my photos from ministry on Facebook!
Please continue to be praying for my team as we are leaving Quito on Monday and heading to Banos for debrief then heading to Portoviejo for the next two months of many different ministry opportunities.
Love Bailea 🙂
