After spending some time back in America, it has been interesting to adjust to “normal life.” Getting back into a routine of some kind (or trying to at least) and sometimes getting caught up in the busy-ness of America have all been part of it. I think one of the hardest parts of adjusting to life in America after The Race is one thing I didn’t even realize was missing: The Holy Spirit.
I started doing this devotional, “21 Days With The Holy Spirit” recently. I’m not always one for devotionals, but I knew my quality times with The Lord were lacking and I needed a bit of a jump-start, so I tried it. I’m only three days into the devos, but I think I’ve already received a revelation on why time with The Lord was lacking in the first place.
You see, I was feeling the symptoms, but had no idea what the cause was (my medical mind thinking). I knew I was feeling farther away from God, but I wasn’t sure why. I had some ideas, but I think I finally figured it out. I could read my Bible and do all the “right” things, but without the leading and dynamic interaction of the Holy Spirit, they weren’t Divinely inspired things.
And then it hit me; life in America isn’t welcoming of the Holy Spirit. The Holy Spirit is something mysterious—it is powerful and miraculous. In America, everything has an explanation and there is a recipe to follow for success. There is no room for something that is not fully understood.
Even though I know the Holy Spirit and have experienced some of Its miraculous doings, I still fell into a pattern that didn’t leave room for It to work. Got a headache? Take medicine. Need a job? Work harder. Have aspirations? Do all the things on the checklist.
This is exactly what I have been doing. Instead of asking The Spirit to heal me, to lead me, to provide for me, I relied on modern technology or my self to “do the right things.” That kind of sucks.
I need to remember how BIG God is and how miraculous The Holy Spirit can be when I allow it space to work in my life. God will never force His way into my life. I have to be open and remember to ask Him to show His love for me in my day-to-day.
