They’re coming? My brother and sister from Haiti are actually coming?? After four years of waiting the kids are coming! Johanne and Emmanuel will be on Texas soil at the end of this month and I will not be there.
I will not be there. I will not be there to welcome an anticipated homecoming of four years. Out of the many years I was ready to go to Haiti to bring the kids home, God has them come home when I am thousands of miles away.
“There is a time for everything, and a season for every activity under heaven.” Ecclesiastes 3:1
God’s timing is perfect. Something I had to say repeatedly as I had the initially exciting news sink in and I began to realize that I would not be there. I would be walking off of a plane into the arms of a new family. While I was extremely thrilled, I was also very overwhelmed with the idea that after experiencing a year that I cannot even begin to put in to words, I would have to dive into another foreign environment immediately.
Then I began to look at the kids I was holding and had fallen in love with this past month in The Philippines. These sweet kids that I was dreading to leave and desperately wanting to find a home for or just sneak into my pack. Through the kids, God sweetly reminded me of the love I have for Johanne and Emmanuel and how much that love surpasses the fact that my family will be different and transitioning without me. It conquers any and every fear I could have. He reminded me that “He knows the plans He has for me” Jeremiah 29:11 and His plans are ALWAYS bigger and better than I could ever imagine.
I have known these things forever, but time and time again I find myself questioning why things happen and why not on my time? Instead of God getting frustrated at me doubting His timing, He sweetly reminds me to trust Him and to simply have FAITH. Oh yeah…the word I blogged about that He wanted me to press in for this year. It is making more and more sense as things continue to unfold.
The Lord commands us to “Walk by Faith, not by sight.” 2 Corinthians 5:7
So now, even though I don’t know what it looks like, I am ready to fully walk in Faith into my new family. Losing my sight not only into my family, but also into the continually changing new future. I am so thankful that all God expects me to do is to walk by Faith and He has the rest, because Lord knows I do not need or want to control my own life. What does God want you to walk in Faith towards? What are you trying to control that God wants you to let go of? As the famous words from Frozen say, “Let It Go” and choose to walk by Faith!
