Ethiopia…Where the final stretch of the race starts. Lately, I’ve been taking a good look at my future, as most of us do as end of the world race gets closer. Many people ask what your plans are after the race, and I’ve always had a solid answer for them… until recently. I really thought I had a plan, but I feel like that plan has been getting less and less clear as I move forward.
Lets back up to Thailand, it was the day our bus left the hostel at 7am to start our travel to Europe. I woke up at 2am to have my interview with George Fox University to join the Masters program for Family/Marriage Counseling. The interview went extremely well, and ended just 30 minutes before our departure. Talk about good timing. Not too long after we left Thailand and landed in Serbia, I got the call that I had been accepted. It was such exciting news. It was a plan, and a good one too. My final year of college I strongly felt like everything lined up for me to pursue that specific career, to pursue George Fox, so once I was accepted it felt like a perfect plan.
A fear I have coming home is not having a plan. So it’s been really nice actually having one, especially one that sounds perfect in every way. However, lately the whole school thing feels like a big MAYBE has been plastered on it. Maybe thats not the best plan for me? Maybe FIVE years of college was enough?! I don’t have any answers right now. I do have a lot of faith that I do not have to fear, because God will provide for me when I get home. Of course He will.
It’s very hard when our plan starts to get shaky because it’s taking away so much security. My whole life, I’ve always had a plan. From college, to where I was going to live, to where I worked, to the world race it has always been laid out in front of me. The thought of having nothing to go off of is scary. How long before I know Gods plan? I really really want to go to George Fox. I really really want to stay in Oregon. What if that’s not His plan? The best thing I can do is lift it all up to God and trust that He wont leave me hanging.
Like I said, nothing is decided. There have been no definite answers. With that being said, please partner with me in prayer these next 2.5 months as I pray for my future and for what God has for me after the world race is over.
“Lord, I give you my future. May your will be done over my life. You are bigger than my biggest worries. You’re greater than my worst fears. Lead me as I give my life to you and let your plan prevail. Steer me whatever direction you want, I am surrendering my plan to yours. Amen.”
Thanks for reading, God Bess.
