As time goes on my thoughts and concerns about the world race are constantly changing. It has been almost 2 months since being accepted, and I have gone through a whirlwind of different emotions. I have gone from being extremely excited, to unsure, scared, conflicted, and lately, very overwhelmed. When I get overwhelmed it is easy for me to just avoid the problem at all costs. I realized now that I’ve been thinking about the wrong things. I was thinking about all the petty details, worrying about fundraising, my own comfort & security, what I could miss out on when I’m gone, how long 11 months actually is, missing out on friends, family, weddings, etc. I was thinking about the small, unimportant, worldly things that often cloud our vision and keep us from seeing things from an eternal perspective.
The moments in my life where I can honestly say I felt the most pure form of joy each involved the Lord using me to bring someone into the Kingdom of Heaven. We were all created for this purpose, although it may look differently for everyone. I’m thankful that the Lord is clearly directing my steps and showing me exactly where he wants me to go through the world race. Having a Kingdom mindset is helping me be more content about abandoning my traditional lifestyle and going out into the world where people need a Savior. When we are absorbed in our own life, our job, school, people, and anything worldly we forget our true purpose here on earth. It is not to be absorbed in the way of the world, it is to share Jesus with others! Because everything on earth will soon go away, but the Kingdom of Heaven will last forever.
Something that has caused me to have fear going into the world race is not having a “home” for 11 months. To me, home is a place where I am comfortable, I have a quiet space where I can be alone, and there are people around me who love me and care about me. I was blessed with an amazing childhood home & family, and after that I was blessed by the House of Charis (my current home) full of amazing sisters who love Jesus. I know that this will be a challenge for me on the world race. I will be constantly moving around, traveling, sleeping wherever… and I won’t have a solid place to call my home, or easy access to the people I am close to. But, God has been consistently reminding me that it doesn’t matter where I am in the world, he is my home. He says, “I am with you always, to the end of the age.” The most important thing I need to remember when I start to worry about this is that I have an eternal home in heaven, and there are still people who don’t have that. It is God’s calling on my life to make sure that the people who are lost are given an eternal home in heaven as well.
Jesus is my forever home.
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