I had no idea I could be utterly and completely wrecked by God’s love in a matter of one week.
Sleeping underneath the stars (or in a bus) all week is seriously a gift. God’s creation is INCREDIBLE. Peeing (and other things) in the woods is actually not as bad as I had imagined.
I had always heard that your squad would become your new family but I had NO idea how good it was going to be to gain 52 new brothers and sisters. Shout out to T squad for loving me in my mess.
Having to be completely packed up and ready to go at 7am each day made me realize that, contrary to previous thoughts, I do NOT need everything I thought I once needed. Sharing among community is a beautiful thing.
Our squad leaders, trainers, mentors, and coaches are some of the most spirit-filled people I have ever been around and I am forever changed by how they poured the love of the Father into my life. Literally forever.
God is SO much bigger and better than I’ve ever known and he busted down all the walls I have had him in for so long. Having to choose to step into brokenness and letting the Holy Spirit expose old wounds is seriously hard, but so so worth the pain. It's the only way to find true dependence. Running hasn’t gotten me anywhere. God is restoring me so that I may go out and restore others through his unending love. What a privilege.
To quote one of our incredible speakers we had (Ron Walborn):
"We must grieve the painfulness of the past seasons of our life before we can effectively embrace the present and the future."
Yeah, enough said.
I found out my team that I will begin the Race with and [goodness sakes] I could not be more excited that God has placed me with 6 GODLY and JOYFUL women to serve alongside. More on them to come soon:)
Having no cell phones, massive dance parties, crazy meal times, getting “robbed” in the African market, taking cold showers (which only happened if it had been more than 4 days since having one), losing gear, sharing EVERYTHING, are things that made Training Camp the most stretching, difficult, hilarious, freeing, grace-filled, renewing week of my life.
I can't imagine what 11 months will be like.
Wrecked,
AH
[Just my ridiculous new T-Squad family]
