God brings up questions like the one he is asking me to draw us closer to him. I think this is a question he is going to keep bringing up. I pray that he takes my heart to a place where my answer is “yes”. Life in that place would be so much different. If I lived and rested in knowing that he is enough, then I would see everything in my life as a blessing. All of my family and friends, living in a developed country, the food in front of me, a job, air conditioning, a marriage, and soap would all be blessings when they came my way rather than expectations or things I depend on. I would also be willing to go anywhere and do anything that he asked of me because I would know that no matter what situation or environment I entered, I would already have all I need. We serve such a gracious and loving God who has blessed me like crazy and likely won’t strip me of everything, but I like that he is asking me this question. I want him to be enough in my life. My desire is to know that I love him so much that I would truly be joyful if I only had him.
That is the question I have been asking myself lately. Actually, that is the question that God has been asking me. “Am I really enough for you?” He is asking me if at the core of who I am, he is all I need. He wants to know that if he took everything out of my life, and it was only him that was left, if that would be enough. If all of the plans and dreams that I have for my life, all of the comforts that I rely on, and every person that I often turn to were all taken away and God was all that was left, would that be enough? I know the right answer is “yes”, and that’s what I want to say. However, my honest answer right now is “no”.
One of the really incredible things about The World Race is that it’s not what I thought I was signing up for. I knew I would learn and grow, but I thought it was going to mostly consist of serving and sharing the love of Christ with others while also seeing how God is already at work in 11 different countries around the world. It has been those things, but the Lord has taken this opportunity to really go to some deep places in all of us on the Race. It makes sense. God has some things he wants to work on in all of us, and this is a perfect opportunity to do that. We are away from most of what we depend on and can only turn to him and our brothers and sisters. He has consistently been asking all of us really hard questions, showing us areas where we need to grow, and taking us to new heights as we walk through things. He often asks us directly or places us in circumstances where we have to address the issues. He also uses the community he has placed around us (our teams) to challenge us and show us areas where we can be refined. It’s hard, it’s good, and it’s all for his glory.
