God has been making this word show up in my life. He has been telling me to be intentional. Many of you who know me, know that I am intentional about things I really care about. Food, my work (some days), food, relaxing, and oh yeah, food. I have been placing my focus and my determination in the wrong places. I focus way to much on one thing… ME. But life is not about me. The world would go on with or without me. As true believers in Christ, God can use us to change the world. But we must first be intentional about putting our full faith and trust in God to provide.
My life for the last few months has looked like I completely trust God to provide for what He has called me to. On a surface level, that is true. I have trusted Him more than I ever have, but internally, I have not completely given this burden over to Him. I have had so much pride in my own mind thinking that I could find ways to raise the money for this mission trip. Here’s a news flash to myself, I CAN’T DO IT ON MY OWN!! God has let me sit and squander in my thinking of ways that I could do this on my own, but in reality I can’t. He has shown me just this week, that I must completely trust in Him and not just say I trust, but actually have the faith to back it up.
Just wanted to give you guys a look into what God is doing in my life right now. I ask that anyone who is reading this, please take the time to pray for me. Daily I am battling with having peace over raising the money for this trip. The root of my worry boils down the unbelief, weak faith, not fully trusting in Him. Pray that I will have that full faith and trust in God to provide for what He has called me to. Thanks for reading!
“Let me experience Your faithful love in the morning, for I trust in You. Reveal to me the way I should go because I long for You.”
Psalms 143:8 HCSB
