What else have I learned on this journey?
God keeps telling us to “Fear not” because he already knew we were going to be afraid.
I’m kind of an adrenaline junky. I once saw a bungee jumping place that had the motto “why live life on the edge when you can jump off?”
Normal reaction: That’s insane!
My reaction: That’s insanely cool!
My sister has said to me before “You’re so fearless!” I was shocked! I told her I’m far from fearless. I just refuse to let my fear stop me from doing and being what I’m supposed to. I have needed that courage on every step of this journey so far. I needed courage to not just extend my faith to believe I would eventually do the World Race, but to also tell others about it so they could stand on faith with me. I needed courage to apply for the race even though I didn’t really have a plan and I had no idea what I was getting myself into. I needed courage to actually commit to the race once I was accepted. I need courage still, as I raise support, share my thoughts on this blog, quit my job, and leave the life I’ve known to go to parts of the world that have never been more than fleeting thoughts before now.
You will sometimes (honestly maybe even all the time) be scared when you take that first step, but God already knew you would be afraid and so
He sent you encouragement and provision… just trust Him.
Fear can come in many packages. There is fear of the unknown, fear of failure and then there is FOMO (Fear Of Missing Out). Everyone in my life has so much going on and FOMO has been SO REAL for me! My closest friends are getting married, starting worldwide music tours and planning for babies. On top of what the people around me are doing, there have been things I wanted to do or commitments that I have wanted to make but can’t. For example, years ago when we were all in college, my best friends and I made a pact that we would go to the Super Bowl the year we are all 30. Well, what do you know that game will be in February of 2019 and I will be somewhere in Cambodia. However, I have a choice. I can choose to be bummed at the prospect of missing a wedding or a show or the birth of a child OR I can believe that by following God’s path I will live my best possible life.
I have this quote from the show Grey’s Anatomy taped to my desk at work and it’s true now more than ever: “I don’t want to live with the ghost of who I could have been if I had only been brave enough to try.” I CAN NOT back down because of fear. Before, I was standing on the edge and now I’m jumping off, knowing that I won’t fall but in God’s hands, I’ll fly.
