I sat across from our ministry contact today listening to God speak while her lips were moving. I had no idea I needed to hear this from Him.
She got a direct download from God and it started from a simple conversation with some awkward silences. She asked what I will do when I get back to the states and I explained how everything was wide open, there is so much potential. From there, God spoke.
I am pleased with you Aubree. I am pleased with you. You have let go of everything, you have left the life you’ve lived for the past 22 years and followed me. Thank you. I am pleased and proud of you; just understand that.
How many times do I believe the lie that I have to do this or do that for God to love me? I have to read the Bible, I have to memorize scripture, I have to draw closer to God and find a new way to do that all so God will be pleased with me.
She began to paint a beautiful picture for me. She was pretending to be a potter, God, molding me, the clay. She was pretending to form the clay, and saying how excited He was that I said yes to Him and oh that hurt there, just one piece I have to take out, I’m sorry and oh it’s so beautiful, let me change you into this shape and another piece here, did that hurt? It’s okay because I’m doing this and wow, what beauty, thank you for giving me your life and so on.
Grayson and me walking back home after getting really dirty caving (blog soon to come!)
Then she told me that because God knows everything, that’s all we need to know. Just let me handle it Aubree, I know. Just say, “God, you knowâ€� and He’ll take care of the rest.
We don’t have to do what we feel like God wants us to do. We just let God do what he wants to do through us. We do ministry with God, alongside him.
The sin in your life- there is none because I came to Earth, it’s gone. The past, present and future is gone. Once you give your heart to me, it is finished. I took on the burden of your sin myself when I was whipped and blood was pouring out my back, when the crown of thorns was smashed down on my head, when nails went into my hands and feet. It’s already finished.
1 Peter 2:24 He himself bore our sins in his body on the tree, so that we might die to sins and live for righteousness; by his wounds you have been healed.
And you are healed. That means every past sin is gone, every past hurt is gone. All diseases and sicknesses are gone. I heal everyone because of the cross. And yes, you have so much potential and I am going to use you. Just give it to me. Just say, God, you know� because I do.
And I began to cry. Here I was being vulnerable with this woman I just met. But why wouldn’t I just be vulnerable, I only have one month with her.
I want to encourage you to cry. You know that feeling you have when your throat wells up and your eyes get watery but you’re too embarrassed or feel silly if tears actually come down your face? Just let it out. Those who sow in tears will reap with songs of joy (Psalm 126:5).
View of the Malaysian Mountains
I was crying and just so overwhelmed with joy and peace that God chose tell me this. I was hearing the gospel again, for the millionth time and I’ve shared the gospel many times, but it was almost like I was getting saved again.
That’s the kind of Father we have. He gave words to a woman so I could hear his love for me.
That is the love that is surrounding us. He is pleased with us, always.
