It was the Saturday of the week I asked God “when” when I went to a United Pursuit Band (UPB) worship concert in Athens, Georgia.
If you have not heard their music, please go to:
http://www.myspace.com/unitedpursuit and listen. Right now I really enjoy 'Set a Fire' and 'Break Every Chain'.
During worship, I was telling the Lord how I was sorry about taking my future into my hands. I was praising him for his grace; I was completely free and wrapped up in his love. Then, I clearly heard from him “Aubree, you are going on The World Race in July.”
Immediately, I said, “NO!” I stopped. All I could do was stand there and beg the Lord to take it back, ask him if he was serious. It couldn’t be July. I was going to be in a best friend from high schools wedding, I had already bought my dress. All the July routes were full. No way could it be this July.
I begged for him to send someone my way to prophecy over me, to give me a clearer answer. I needed to know if it was this July. There was a weight on me. I could not shake this voice that had spoken so loud and clear. I sometimes think I hear the Lord but I am then able to brush it off my shoulder, put it in the back of my head, and forget about it. I could not do that this time. It was clear, obvious. “Aubree, you are going on The World Race in July.”
UPB started to sing words like, “I give it all to you Lord…. I hold nothing back.” I could not sing this; these lyrics would not come out of my mouth. I didn’t believe them. I couldn’t give my life to God in this moment. I was so scared. I cried, balled my eyes out. I wasn’t getting any more direction than that, July. I asked for prayer. I explained what was going on to my friend and continued to cry. I just kept thinking how I can’t go in July, I can’t raise that amount of money that soon, I can’t go that soon, I can’t leave that soon, I can’t really go then, I can’t not be in the wedding, I can’t get in on July routes. I thought He would have listened to my plan to go in January… Nope.
Y’all the only thing I could do was surrender. I could only give my heart and life to the Lord. I could only obey. I had to give it over to him, that’s why we are on this Earth. We are here to obey and trust.
And then I heard the voice of the Master. “Whom shall I send? Who will go for us?” I spoke up, “I’ll go. Send me!”
Didn’t I just ask when? Did he not just answer me?
