Yesterday I jumped
off a 525 foot bridge, the second highest bungee jump in the world. And, by the
way, it was in Nepal in the Himalaya Mountains.
It was by far one
the scariest thing I have done in my life. I will never do it again, I hated
it. But I am so glad I did it. Weird combination, I know.
When I was getting
my harness on, I began freaking out. Why would I choose to jump off a bridge
into a canyon, down to rushing water?
It took me the
longest in the group to actually jump. I was making sure the guy would hold on
to me until I counted down. I walked over the edge of the bridge getting ready
to jump and stood there thinking, “This is the stupidest thing I have ever
done. I am about to jump to my death.” There was no turning back at that
point though. And I jumped screaming my brains out the whole way down.
I wanted to keep my
eyes open the whole time. I can’t even tell you if I did or not. I can’t
remember what happened. As soon as I jumped I regretted the decision and knew
it was never anything I would do again. So, I just know I jumped free falling
into a canyon and bounced up and down a few times.
When the bouncing
was over, I was hanging upside down waiting for them to catch me with a bamboo stick at the bottom, which took
forever, and my thoughts were confirmed about the bad decision. I was laid on a
bed that smelled like sweat and pee and I looked back up at the bridge not
believing I just did it. Then we had to hike back up 30 minutes in the sun…
And now I have a
popped blood vessel in my eye; that’s what happens when you bungee folks.
Don’t get me wrong,
this was an awesome experience. Everyone else loved it and wanted to do it
again. However, before doing the bungee I knew that my response would be what I
am telling you.
I have to admit
something. This isn’t the scariest thing I have ever done. The scariest thing I
have ever done, without realizing it at the time, was asking God for an
adventure. I asked him several times actually throughout college. I wanted him
to take me on an adventure. I wanted him to stretch me in ways I wouldn’t
believe possible.
Well, look where I
am now… I will forever be careful what I ask in Jesus name. It will wreck you
when you least expect it.
Since I have left America, things back home have happened that I missed. Friends have died,
friends have gotten married, friend have gotten engaged, and friends have
gotten pregnant.
Each time I wonder
why God has let this happen while I am gone and why I am not there for them.
So many of my blogs
have been about sacrifice. That’s because that’s what my Race has been about
this whole time. Sacrificing my life for God’s. So the other day when I found
out about another thing I would be missing while I was gone, I was upset. I
couldn’t believe it. So, I sat on it and God spoke to me.
Philippians 3:8
“What is more, I consider everything a loss compared to the surpassing
greatness of knowing Christ Jesus my Lord, for whose sake I have lost all
things. I consider them rubbish, that I may gain Christ.”
“Aubree, you
chose me this year. You gave me your life this year. Because you did that, your
life is mine. Yes, there has been death and yes you will miss your friends
getting married, but you chose me. So, you consider everything a loss even
still.”
That life I miss and
lived doesn’t compare to knowing Christ. So again I say to you, I have given it
to him. I consider it all a loss.
Ask for an
adventure, you’ll receive it in his perfect timing.
