Tomorrow early morning our squad begins the journey to our second country of our 11 months, Moldova.
This month has been a challenge in many ways and God has begun to mold my life in ways that I had no idea he would. I call them teachable moments. Moments when I have been stretched, but God has changed my perspective and redirected my desires to fit his.
My most defining moments in being molded were the days when we spent hours on the streets evangelizing and passing out tracks.
Instinct tells me that meeting strangers is uncomfortable.
Strangely this has become my life.
Both feet in, I have jumped blindly into the normalcy of this. Meeting strangers on a day to day basis. Living the next year of my life VERY CLOSELY with a group of young people I know hardly anything about. On top of that, month to month we move to new countries and meet new contacts.
The majority of this past month in Romania we have spent time on the streets doing door to door evangelism. I have never been comfortable with door to door evangelism. Even in the states, the idea of this is not appealing. Going up to a strangers doors. Initiating small talk. Somehow changing the subject to Jesus and why they need him. I don't thrive in this environment.
God wanted and still wants to teach me though. Whether I want to accept it or not, this was the life that Jesus lived and he wants me to partake in it. Jesus traveled from town to town. He was open and vulnerable with strangers and put the kingdom way above his own comforts. Above all else, he pointed them to his Father and knew that his work on this earth was not in vain.
I have struggled this month in accepting this. My work is not in vain. Whether I get to have a deep conversation with a stranger or not, the seed has been planted and nothing I have said or done was in vain. This is exactly the way that Jesus wanted it to happen. Meeting strangers on the streets is uncomfortable, but it is necessary. This is how the gospel is proclaimed the the ends of the earth. It won't happen unless I let down my walls and be bold in Jesus.
I would like to say that at the end of this trip that I have become comfortable enough in my walk with Christ that proclaiming his name boldly is no longer a struggle. That these daily teachable moments have molded my thought process and strangers are my mission field. I want to walk passionately into the streets as Jesus did and bring as many souls as possible into the kingdom.
Pray with me that more teachable moments will arise for me over the next few months and that I will not let my self get in the way of God's work.
"But you will receive power when the Holy Spirit comes upon you; and you will be my witnesses in Jerusalem, and in Judea and Samaria, and to the ends of the earth." – Acts 1:8
