To my enemies,
It has been a long road, my friends. I hate to say, but I do believe that it is time for our goodbyes. After a long, thorough time together, I thought it best to extend my most sincere gratitude for all you have done in my life. So here is a letter from yours truly.
Dear sadness,
As the first to burst your way into my life, you have been around for as long as I can remember, always there for me when I want you. Your ever-present existence in my life is something I have become used to, even find comforting at times. You have shown me what it is like to go through life with a constant pain in my heart. There have been so many times that I try to get rid of you, but never seem to succeed. I have come to realize that you will always be here, there is no shaking you. However, I do not have to sit and talk with you for hours like I have in the past. Please do not be hurt when I do not listen to you from here on, I have simply found something better. Thank you for showing me that without you, I would not appreciate my life as much as I do.
Dear Fear,
Life with you has been very interesting thus far. Usually, I feel like you’re strangling the life out of me, but at times you make me feel more alive than anything else. I do not think that you are necessarily a bad thing, you have just claimed too much power over me. You see, little doses of you can be a good, even a great, thing. However, I can no longer allow you to hold me back from all of the amazing things in store for me. Thank you for showing me that courage is not the absence of you, but the process of defeating you.
Dear anxiety,
You are a sneaky little sucker. I applaud you for mastering the ability to weasel your way into any situation without anyone realizing you are there. I cannot say that you have ever brought anything pleasant to my life but instead have taken all of them away. When you enter, you enter solely to destroy and I do not think I will miss you even the slightest. Thank you for showing me time and time again that you are completely pointless.
Dear insecurity,
You are the only one that I hate to admit is in my life. Although it would be so much easier to just pretend like you aren’t here, I have learned that you gain your power by hiding in the shadows. The only way that I could ever get rid of you is to acknowledge you and take you head on. So here I am, recognizing you, but also letting you know that I am so much stronger than you. Everything you ever told me about who and what defines me is not true at all. So, thank you for telling me every lie so that I may finally learn the truth. Also, please leave all of my precious sisters in Christ alone.
Dear heartache,
You, my friend, are unlike anyone I’ve ever met. The feeling that you give me is something that I never imagined I would experience, especially at a young age. I find it interesting how you work. You don’t simply appear all on your own but are a beautiful, intricate combination of all the others. That is why you are so painful. That is why you have so much power. But you see, heartache, you have also taught me the most. Because it was not okay for you to stay in my life for very long. It took you coming into my life to see what all of the others have been doing to me for so long. However, through realizing this, I have realized something else. So here is a word for you all.
My sweet Abba Father loves me too much to let you run my life. A long, long time ago He decided to take care of you once and for all. So, you know what, He did. He conquered you and all of the others that are trying to stand in my way to Him. But, it does not stop there. He wanted to do even more than that, so guess what. He gave that SAME POWER to me. Yes, the power he used to conquer everything, is mine for the taking. I am sick and tired of just letting that power sit unused. So, it’s finally time my friends. With the help of my Father, I am taking my life back, starting today. I have laid you down before the cross that my dear Jesus defeated you on and will not be returning to find you. I understand that you will still be around, you will just have to observe my life from afar from now on. Consider this our official goodbye.
so much love,
ash
