I've realized over the past few days how fake I am.
On facebook, I try not to post too many "Jesus posts".
During skype with my squad, I try not to tell them about my struggles with my faith.
We live in this world where the sinners don't want to hear about Jesus and the 'saints' don't want to hear about the sins. So I live in this middle ground all the time, trying to please everyone around me.
I am sick of it. I am done with it.
I want to show the world that Jesus is amazing. I want to be that Christian who wants to hear about the sin and not judge the person because of it. I want to stop worrying about what other people think of my relationship with God and I want to stop worrying about what people think of my life before that.
God has blessed me with a story to tell. A story of my own life and he wants me to be REAL.
But being real… Oh man, that is tough. How do you put it all out there? How can you tell the world about your sins without feeling ashamed?
I know I have this awesome God who gave his Son to me for that reason but I mean… does the world really HAVE to know?
As Christians, we need to start looking at our stories as BLESSINGS no matter how cruel and terrible they might seem. God's thinking is so much more above our own and the messes of our lives are a beautiful story with a purpose that he has specifically designed.
So that is my goal, to be more real, to see my story as a blessing and not as a burden. To show my love of God and to show people that their stories are blessings too.
