The devil is working against me a lot lately. This time the attack has come from an unexpected place… my own squad. It's funny how the devil can work…
I've been struggling with the fact that I believe some very different things then the rest of my squad. Well, not all of them but the majority of them.
I am a liberal.
a full fledged gay marriage supporting, pro-choice, anti-gun loving liberal.
And some most of my squad disagrees with me on some of these issues.
and that is fine.
i don't want this to be an anti-conservative blog because it's not.
What I am saying, is that the devil is using this conflict to get in my head. He is telling me that I can NEVER fit in with people who are so fundamentally different then me. He is telling me that my beliefs are stupid and that I can never be good enough to go on this trip.
Here is the thing–
I am logical.
If an argument has fallacies, I discount it. I think like a lawyer… There is a reason that I wanted to go to law school early on in college and I probably would have been good at it but it sometimes doesn't make me the nicest person to be on a missionary team with.
I am opinionated and its not going to stop.
I know what I know and that won't change. My life experiences have shaped these opinons and I value them. And I hate when people feel like they are not valid, it drives me crazy. And there is really not much you can say that is going to change my mind…
I like to argue but I like to win. And will fight until I am blue in the face.
I am working on listening to the other side without taking comments seriously. I am working on trying to be less sarcastic when I answer people because its demeaning. I am working on being the bigger person. But I am never going to stop fighting for what I believe in and I probably won't stop posting on those things… it's just who I am.
So pair those things with a group of people who believe the exact opposite of me and it's kind of been volatile the past few days on my brain and my soul. Its been hard to imagine being on a race with people who think so differently then I do. How do I deal with that?
But I mean, I have a group of people on this squad, who I love and who love me… despite my liberal opinions. And I think that is a starting point. I am here to stay and learn from you guys and hopefully, you guys can learn from me, as well.
I like to think that everyone who walks into our life has a purpose and what if….
We are put here to challenge each other? What if God wants us to both take from each other? What if we'll never know if we are wrong? What if we open our eyes up to a knew kind of thinking?
I think its important to have people who believe differently then you, it makes you think. It makes you develop your thinking… And how boring would the world be if we were all the same?
