The table is over following this month. Every where I turn there is a need, a hurt, a desire, brokenness, shame, depression, and a longing for true love. This month has proven to be the most difficult month thus far, and also the most incredible month yet. Last month Matt said after a hard month in Cambodia and then dealing with sickness over Anna at debrief, “It is only going to get harder.” And all I could do was grown. Sigh–deep sigh, because I know he is right. It is only going to get harder because God is going to be doing more and more. He is teaching me and I am trusting him and being obedient. And as I become more and more obedient, he is trusting me with more and more things, which just makes things harder…kind of funy, isn’t it?
I have been working on a blog for several days now (this is obviously not it). I am having such a hard time putting into words what God is doing and how he is at work. There is so much going on in this small brain of mine. Things beyond what I ever thought could be there. I guess I wanted to get something out there to you all who are keeping up with this, and I wanted to let you know exaclty what I am doing here in Thailand.
We are staying at a place called Lighthouse Ministries. It is by far the nicest place we have stayed, and we are very blessed to have many conviences that we have in the states. This month is a lot of ask the Lord and do what he leads. This can be very hard, hard to figure out what God wants you to do, and hard not to do all these other things you want to do because you have a lot of free time and freedom. I felt the very first day the Lord was asking me to be in prayer constantly this month. I though, What does that even mean? Don’t I usually do that? Pray through the day as I am doing things? But he had different plans. He revealed to me that he wanted me to be in deep prayer for the women I am working with this month, and that also meant making myself avaibable to them to be prayed with. So I have been spending a few hours in prayer for these women. In the evenings, there is an opportunity to be out in the bars, developing relationships with the women who are caught in prostitution. Again, my personality is to be building relationships and working with people. But God has other plans for me this month. I felt lead again to just be in prayer as the women went out to build these relationships. So every night that we go down there, I prayer walk wherever the Lord leads. I have been able to minister and pray for so many people, and it has been such a blessing for me to be able to do that.
I will be giving more specifics soon to some of the things God is doing here. Thanks for being patient with me! Love you all!
