I know God has something big for me…
He is going to use me in a mighty way, to proclaim truth and have his passion and his heart.
But my time has not yet come.
I have so much to learn.
So much.
I have fought this spirit of comparison all year long. Comparing other people to myself, their walks with the Lord, their gifts, their passion. I have made up excuses about God giving me a gentle spirit and living in the lie that I am timid and gentle, especially in worship and when it comes to speaking out the things God has laid on my heart. And because of that, I have not allowed my flesh and m heart to fully submit to the Lord. I have been afraid to give my all and to let my voice be heard and to let the Lord flow through me.
I think that I could never be like the man or woman who is passionate and stands up in front of everyone speaking the word that Lord has put on my lips. I believe the lie that feeds off the truth that I am a behind the scenes leader-that I stand in the background. The truth is, I do have a gentle spirit. I do serve and lead behind the scenes, but that does not mean my voice should not be heard.
God is well inside me.
There is more inside me than I have ever been able to dig deep enough to get and let out. I can be loud and boisterous. I can be passionate in the truth the Lord has given me. And I pray my passion of Christ becomes more and more so that it can flow out of me more.
