The Lord is really working on me hard with discipline. I have always struggled in this area, even as an athlete. I always lacked the drive to really push myself unless someone (a coach or teammate) was pushing me. I struggle with food (sweets are my downfall!), fun, being with people, and taking time to focus my mind on God and commune with him.
As I went through this last debrief, I felt the Lord really speaking to my heart regarding these things. I wrote down an entire conversation I had with God and he gave me several verses to help me better understand what he was saying.
There are so many times I have not done what the Lord asks of me because I think it is too hard and I choose not to put my mind to it. Zephaniah 3:11 says, “On that day you shall not be put to shame because of the deeds by which you have rebelled against me.” Praise God for that!
James 4:7-10 Submit yourselves therefore to God. Resist the devil, and he will flee from you. Draw near to God, and he will draw near to you. Cleanse your hands, you sinners, and purify your hearts you double-minded. Be wretched and mourn and weep. Let your laughter be mourning and your joy be gloom. Humble yourselves before the Lord, and he will exalt you.
First Timothy 2:1-2 First of all, I urge that supplications, prayers, intercessions, and thanksgivings be made for all people. For kings and all who are in high positions, that we may lead a peaceful and quiet life, godly and dignified in every way.
Ecclesiastes 3:1-8 For everything there is a season and a time for every matter under heaven…a time to break down, and a time to build up, a time to weep, and a time to laugh, a time to mourn and a time to dance…a time to embrace and a time to refrain…a time to tear and a time to sew…a time to keep silent and a time to speak…
The season has come for me to surrender myself and the things I think I need: food, internet, fun, etc. So for as long as the Lord wants, I will not be using the internet for anything other than bloging and “business” (stuff for team/World Race). The Lord is leading me into a time of solitude. He told me there is so much for me to learn that I am not learning because I am so distracted. I desire so much to hear his voice clearly at all time and to walk in the gifts he has given me fully. It might take a good amount of time by myself to do that..ugh. But If it wasn’t hard it wouldn’t be worth it!
