Tomorrow marks a new month on the race. Its been five months since I have left the comforts of my home and got on a plane to fly for the first time out of the country. Let me give you a little throwback. Month 4 on the race we had to attend a class every Monday about finding our pathways. I’ll be honest with you I was never a big fan of school and it was really hard for me to pay attention but I was surprised when I found one of the lessons making me rethink my life. The lesson was on dreams. We had to write down every dream we had and if we had achieved it. If we didn’t achieve that dream we had to give a reason why. I wrote down my list and realized that a lot of my dreams weren’t achieved or I did not even consider them anymore because I had a fear of what people thought. What if I was not good enough or that there was always someone better than me. The second I got a negative opinion about that dream I quickly gave up on that dream. This kinda crushed my heart. My parents always believed I could do whatever my heart desired even if that thing was so small they would still support me, but yet I let my fears get to me and stopped wanting to pursue these things.
Fast forward to now. I kinda pushed this whole dreams thing to the back of my head because it hurt my brain to even think about it. But the other day God revealed to me that I never put the World Race on my goals list. I remember always wanting to go on a missions trip. I wanted to see the world but I wanted to see it for God, not for myself. Before leaving for this trip someone told me that I could not do this. That I have never left the country let alone been on a missions trip, why did I think I could go on one for 9 months. But here I am, in Antigua Guatemala. Teaching cute little spunky kids! I realized that not only am I in the middle of accomplishing my goal but I also have my whole life to accomplish my other goals in life. I needed to stop living life to please the world and start living it to please God. I wanna give a huge shout out to my parents for always having my back through thick and thin and reminding me I’m never to young or too old to have a dream. I would also like to thank the man upstairs for giving me the desires of my heart! The race has made me want to live more and pursue the old habits I used to love. I’m going to start painting again, cooking again, spending more time with my family, and just loving life!
TO ANYONE WHO READS THIS YOU ARE NEVER TO YOUNG OR TO OLD TO ACCOMPLISH THE THINGS YOUR HEART DESIRES! DO NOT AND I REPEAT DO NOT LISTEN TO THOSE NEGATIVE INFLUENCES IN YOUR LIFE! YOU WILL NOT REGRET IT!
