Heaven’s Gate

But there was a big difference. 

This time I felt strong, energized, excited and slightly out of breath. Nothing I couldn’t get back within moments. 

Elephant mountain was the opposite. I was shaking the entire time, I was exhausted, my muscles were screaming and I couldn’t catch my breath. I struggled bad this day and I wasn’t sure I was going to make it. 

So, what was the difference? 

In Taipei, I had relapsed back into my eating disorder. I had been listening to the lies of the enemy that I wasn’t enough, that I needed to improve myself, that I wasn’t seen or wanted. The old lie that to eat close to nothing, to highly control my food intake
made you a better person was screaming at me. And I submitted to it. So when it came time to use my body it couldn’t respond. I had taken its life force and energy. I had mistreated myself and I was being paid back. 

It was near the end of our time in the Tianmen mountains that I had this realization. I felt empowered and victorious. I could evidently see the difference between taking care of myself and hurting myself. Let me tell you, I enjoy having life in my body! I
haven’t been struggling with eating disorder thoughts for over a month now and I am grateful. It’s something the enemy tries to bring up time and time again but I have to take authority and shut that voice down. 

That’s my victory. He is bringing me to higher places every day. Now, enjoy some pictures from the mountains!!