I don’t know about you, but I’m a planner. I love to make plans and then execute them perfectly. I admit I even get a little bent out of shape when things don’t go as planned. So when literally everything in my life started to stop going according to plan you can imagine how frazzled I was. I became very anxious and fearful about the future. I thought I knew how my life was gonna go, but God had a different plan. The thing about God’s plans are that they usually make us a bit uncomfortable. God wants to get us out of our comfort zone so we become vulnerable and reliant on him.One of the biggest things I had to learn was to let go, and let God. When you trust God with your life and give him full control, he starts to do some pretty amazing things.
My life went from being full of my own plans to being a blank slate that God is using for his glory. God’s plans are so much better than anything we could even think of for ourselves. And let me tell you, I am so glad that God did not give me what I thought I wanted at the time.
I started praying for God to use me. I started praying that I would die to myself, so that I could truly live for God. I must decrease and he must increase (John 3:30). As I took this humble stance before God, and gave up my own agendas, I started to see God’s plan for my life more clearly.
I have always felt called to missions, theres just never been time. Never the right opportunity. It’s never worked out. Now that all my plans are out the window and I’ve handed the steering wheel over to God, he’s been opening all the doors and making the time for me to go on this trip. God turned my life upside down, so that he could start preparing me for an even greater calling than I could imagine. I am so blessed and excited for this opportunity.
Matthew 28:19 – Therefore GO and make disciples of all nations, baptizing them in the name of the father, son and the holy spirit. Teaching them to obey everything I have commanded you, and surely I am with you always, to the end of the age.
So, here I am Lord, send me.
– Ashley.
