My life is not my own. I do nothing in my own power that is worth speaking about. I live every day wake up go threw a routine and go to sleep. I wake up the next morning and do the same thing again. It is all worthless, pointless even. It means nothing. When I die what I did with my life does not matter. Years after I am gone no one will remember me.
My life is not my own. I gave it away. I no longer wake up for me. I no longer wake up and think about what will I do today. I left it my life to something else. Something much bigger than myself. I want to make an impact but I can not do it on my own. I need help. I want to have meaningful conversations and leave knowing they will wonder what is it about me that is so different. I want to make the decision every day that my life is not my own. It does not and has never belonged to me.
I gave my life away. I died about a year ago and the person that is writing this is not the same person you knew. My life as changed my perspective is not the same. I do not see people I see the potential. I see the person who they were created to be not the person I am standing in front of. I will forever be changed. My life has meaning, a meaning and a purpose I wish everyone understood. If you realized who you were created to be if you saw your self how God sees you. If you could only understand your worth. If you lived to understand that without God your living at half mass. You have not even opened your eyes. You are blind to this world. You are blind to the beauty God has created in you.
My life is not my own. My life would mean nothing without God. I would wake up in vain. I would be in the same place every day doing the same thing and at the end of the day, it would not matter. I wish I could explain to each of you how important you are. And how much God loves you. And that the life you are living could be so much more than you could even dream of. God did not create mundane or boring. Life is meant to exciting and new every day. He has plans for your life you can’t even fathom.
I have heard so many people say I don’t want to be a Christain because there are too many rules to follow. If you only understood that once you know God you not only want to follow him but will do everything in your power to. It is not and has never been a burden. The joy and peace he fills you with because you belong to him is overwhelming. It is better than any earthly high I have felt. There is nothing I can compare him to. You have to find out for your self.
I died, my life before was meaningless. I am alive for the first time in 30 years of living. I can breathe for the first time. I can see the beauty in his creation. I can see the beauty in people. It is like nothing I ever experienced here on earth. To be in the world but not of the world. I’m overwhelmed by his love for me. I am overwhelmed by his grace. I am overwhelmed by him. He is everything I had been searching for in the world. The hole in my soul I could never fill myself. There was no drug, no relationship, no escape that could even come close to what he has done for me.
I died to myself and I have never felt so free.
