God has been showing me some amazing things. I have been praying for revelation for a while now. And God is true to his word “ask and you shall receive.” The other week one of my team mates had told me that she wanted to be able to speak in tongues. She said she spoke in tongues one other time, and she spoke in tongues in her head, but had doubts. She was also nervous about speaking it out load (I found out after) because she was worried about how it would sound. Or what people might think. Well last Wednesday we had our weekly prayer meeting. She was sitting to the left of me one row in front of where I was sitting.
As service began I was trying to pray and receive something from the Lord. I kept asking him God, “do you have anything for me?” At one point I thought (or so I thought it was my thoughts) “tongues is a spoken language you have to speak it!” “You need to tell Eva!” I wanted her to be able to receive this gift so badly I thought I better not interfere with what ever God is doing so I kept it to my self. At this point we are about twenty minutes in to the prayer meeting. I ask God again, “I am hear is there anything you have for me?” I herd “be quit and listen.” So I did just that, again I hear the same thing, “tongues is a spoken language you have to speak it.” So I began speaking in tongues thinking ok. What ever God has for me I am suppose to pray it in tongues. This whole time I feel very blocked, I feel like, ok God I want to receive something from you tonight can you show me some pictures? Can you give me a word?
As the prayer meeting continued I was still receiving nothing. At this point I looked at Eve, she was sitting indian style in the chair with her eyes closed. I could tell by her body language that she was praying, but not out loud. So I ask the Lord again, Lord I feel blocked from you can you show me something or tell me something tonight. I really want to hear from you. Again I get the same thing “tongues is a spoken language you have to speak it!”
At this point I have thoughts running though my head. “Ok, do I tell her this?” “Cause I am not getting anything else, and this same thought as entered my mind several times now. But what if this is just me wanting this for her? And it’s not what God wants? So I pray, “God should I tell Eva the thoughts I am having?” ” Are they your words, or my thoughts?” As I am lingering on this prayer, I realize this is the only thing for the last thirty minutes I could think of. I was feeling blocked from God in this moment which I thought was weird. I had been asking God to show me something. Has I wrestled with myself on weather these where God’s words or my own selfish thoughts. I wanted her to be able to speak in tongues so badly I did not want to misinterpret the Holy Spirit. Then the realization hit me, wait I feel blocked from God right now? I cant get this thought out of my head? I can not concentrate on anything else? So I ask God again “God do you want me to tell Eva about speaking in tongues?” I new in my spirit what God said, he was communicating to me without words just this over whelming feeling. And this thought I could not get out of my head.
So I walk up to her, interrupting her prayer time. I lean in and say “The Holy Spirit wanted me to tell you, tongues is a spoken language you have to speak it!” She looked at me and laughed, the look on her face I knew why she laughing. She said “I been over hear praying in tongues in my head, but I am worried about how it sounds.” To which I replied, “The room is loud and no one can hear you, now’s the best time to practice.” We have a few more words together, and I leave her to do what ever she feels called to do. I go back to my seat and I hear from the Holy Spirit, “pick up your Bible.” I do and go to the “Great Stories Of The Bible”, in the back of the NLT. I begin to scroll over all the stories and this one sticks out. “The Holy Spirit Comes”
Acts 2:3-4
3)Then, what looked like flames or tongues of fire appeared and settled on each of them. 4) And everyone present was filled with the Holy Spirit and began speaking in other languages as the Holy Spirit gave them this ability.
So I wrote this down and boxed in the word speaking.
Now I was not feeling blocked anymore! So I began to pray and sing to Jesus. After service I leaned over in the chair and gave my note book to Eva with the verse God had given me for her. She laughed again with joy on her face! She said “that’s so funny, God gave me the same verse!” As the night was ending we walked upstairs to the room we are staying in. Eva, Sharron, Marisa, and I all stopped by the dinner table and began talking. Eva was the first to speak up. She announced “I spoke in tongues!!” We where all like giddy like a little school girls. This is something we had talked about weeks before now coming to fruition! She told me her side of the story and how she was nervous about speaking, then I came over and told her what the Holy Spirit wanted me to tell her! It gave her the courage to be able to speak! God is so so good!!
Next time this happens, I have something repeating in my head I know what to do. Ask God if these are his words, or just my thoughts? Then have a little bit more faith God is speaking to me. This whole prayer meeting was tied up in me learning this. I had been asking for God to show me something new. And he did, I just did not realize it. Makes me laugh now I am on the other side of it, writing about it. Now I am thinking “Duh, Ashley he was speaking the whole time you just were not listening.”
I can not wait to see what else God is going to do this year. I am so excited to keep growing and learning about the God who created me.
P.S. Please be praying for me, I want to go deeper with God. For him to reveal even more of himself to me. So any prayer for this I would I would be grateful!
Thank you in advance
God Bless!!
