What will this post be about? Are you taking bets? Trying to figure it out? That's how I feel about my life right now. I see this little tiny piece and say to myself 'well, what in the world does this mean?'
When I became a Christian at 13, my mom found this footsteps poem, talking about how when we see only one set of footprints in our lives, it's not that God abandoned us, he has picked us up and is carrying us. It is a beautiful image and pretty soon my mom was finding the poem on tons of stuff and picking it up for me wherever she went. Fast forward years later, I'm working at a climbing gym and I find a small silver ring covered in tiny footprints (it was there for months, email me if you know it's provenance). I have hardly taken it off since i found it. I even have a cute little tan line. Its like my own private promise ring, a promise between me and the Lord that I will pay attention and more importantly trust in Him, that He has my best interest at heart.
(the ring)
So, with the World Race, now I'm REALLY getting it; seeing how I have so much pain inside of me, confronting silly inconsequential things that I've been holding onto thinking 'it's not fair and how come and why God why would you do it this way….' He's taking me through this to show me He's been there this whole time. He didn't set out to make me suffer, neither did my parents, neither did my third grade teacher who I'm positive I was rude to. No one set out to make me suffer or loose out or anything, they all did the best they could do with what they had at the time. Who wouldn't? I cant honestly say I know anyone who purposefully hurts others. So, now, this journey is an opportunity for me to stop blaming others and questioning God, being mad at him for what I thought was abandonment but it turns out is just Life, in all its messy goodness.
(the chacos)
P.S. These are my Chacos– a really rad river guiding sandal that I've had since 2005. They will be my main race shoe so, Happy Birthday Chacos! I can't wait to see where your footprints lead…
