Someone recently asked me how it feels to be over halfway through the race. Some may answer by saying they wish they were closer to the end. Others may say they have regrets and wish they could start over. These middle months may feel as though they are dragging on, and the other side is far away. It’s easy to feel stuck in the middle because of burnout, exhaustion, frustrations, homesickness, focusing on plans for after the race, etc. My answer to this question is nothing like what I just described. I’m actually very content with where I’m at. While I am glad that I don’t have 11 more months ahead of me, I am not ready to be done. I can look back over the past 6+ months and see all the work the Lord has done in my heart, all the things I have experienced, all the friends I’ve made across the world & within my squad, and I wouldn’t trade it for anything I’ve missed out on at home. Looking forward, I can see there is more work to be done within and without. I don’t want to miss a thing by focusing on how much time is left, how many “things” I will miss while I’m gone or plans for after the race. I am pressing on through these next few months even more resolved to grow in intimacy with the Lord allowing Him to mold me. I’m approaching obstacles stronger than ever. I’m seeing people in a whole new light with a heart that is burdened for them. I’m anticipating the uncomfortable with a welcoming spirit because I know that’s where I grow the most. The race is hard. I do miss home. But there is no place I’d rather be than in month 7 of the World Race in northern Uganda because this is where the Lord asked me to go. He still has work to do. The journey isn’t over. I’m un-stuck in the middle with HIM.
Lord, I have chosen you alone as my inheritance.
You are my prize, my pleasure, and my portion.
I leave my destiny and its timing in your hands.
Your pleasant path leads me to pleasant places.
I’m overwhelmed by the privileges
that come with following you,
for you have given me the best!
Psalm 16:5-6
