First, I just want to take a moment to Thank God for giving me a sense of calm today when I easily could have lost my cool with a Boston Bus Driver, gotten down on myself a lot more for failing at the one job I had to do today, and Thank Jesus for bathroom’s. Never again will I drink a cup of coffee and then take a tea to go before getting myself lost… Twice.
Last week, I had made it my goal to come to Boston and get my immunizations done, either on Thursday before the weekend or whenever I’d be returning from Connecticut. I ended up making the appointment for today, so I spent Sunday night in Boston with the intention of getting my immunizations done this afternoon.
Everything that could have gone wrong today went wrong. I got lost. I went the wrong way. I needed to pee really badly with no bathroom around. I was running out of spare money for the MBTA Busses. Everything. Wrong.
Somewhere along the way, I decided that relieving myself to pee and getting home for dinner on my Mom’s Birthday was way more important than getting shots on the other side of Boston in a place that I had never been to before. I used my remaining $20 to get me back into the MBTA system when I arrived at Kenmore for the second time, and luckily there was a TD Bank at the Park Street stop, so I was able to get more money out for my bus ticket home.
While waiting for my bus ride home in South Station, I kept thinking “Well, I clearly wasn’t supposed to get my shots today.” I had every intention of it, but God clearly had other plans for me. As I was reflecting back on today, I began to realize that I can get down on myself if things don’t go the way I was planning, and how He can still meet me and everyone else in the moments He says “Not Today” because His plans are much bigger and serve a better purpose.
Today taught me loads about how I deal with things when I am completely on my own with only God to rely on. (I can see that I still have a lot of things I need to work on and that I absolutely cannot do it without the help of God and other people that He has placed inside of my life).
I’m not so happy that God said “no” to getting my immunizations today, but maybe He will say “yes” somewhere in PA when I get there. Because every “no” leads to a “yes” somewhere along the line.
Even though God said “no” to my plans today, I’m so glad that God said “yes” to a weekend away with a family and friends I have come to know and love over the years. Even though God said “no” today, I am so glad that God said yes to walking with two amazing people in Somers after a dinner at the Sibilia’s on Saturday Night, laughing and talking; and I am so glad that God said “yes” to Taylor Swift turned up in the car with someone else driving and the windows down; because while it’s awesome listening and jamming out to Taylor Swift alone in the car at home, there’s nothing quite like yelling out “WELCOME TO NEW YORK” and “BAD BLOOD” at the top of your lungs with a friend beside you.
I would say the same thing about life: It’s not as fun unless you have people living it alongside you, through the numerous ups and downs, yes’s and no’s that are bound to come our way.
When God says “no” to you, will you think negatively and let it impact the rest of your day or will you rejoice in what God did give you and stay positive? Just some food for thought. :]
Prayer Requests
-Please be praying for my Squad and I as we begin to prepare for Training Camp in the next month. I, personally, am starting to get really nervous about meeting everyone, so for nerves on my part to be subsided in one way or another would be awesome. Please pray that connections will be built at Training Camp and that God would move in huge ways throughout our entire Squad.
-I also need prayer about getting those immunizations done! Just because God said “no” today does not mean that He’s saying “no” to the Race!! I know that He has me on this journey for a reason, and it has already grown me so much.
-Please continue to pray for financial provision as well. I am a little over halfway toward my launch goal of $10,000 and there are still many of my Squad Mates who have yet to reach their Training Camp Goal. Pray that God would place people in all our paths who will be willing to give and help us out in whatever way they can, whether through prayer or financial help.
Thank You!!
All my Love,
Ashley
