Following God doesn’t always make sense. His plans don’t always follow the the typical timeline of society. But why hinder God by making him follow the world’s timeline when he works outside of time to begin with? His ways are higher and his thoughts are wilder than ours; this is why it takes faith to follow him, not logic.
I am currently a sophomore in college- with the credits of a junior- so I technically only have a year of school left. The logical thing for me to do would be to finish my last year of school.
I have scholarships from school and the state that I could potentially lose if I took a year off of school. The logical thing for me to do would be to stay in school.
I had a plan for myself to finish school early, and get out on my own to start my life. The logical thing for me to do would be to finish that plan I’ve almost completed.
But do I trust God with my future and his plan for me? Do I trust that he will make a way no matter what? Do I trust that he will provide finances for me?
Am I going to let my timeline hinder his plans?
On September 29, 2017 I was serving at a beautiful Women’s conference. The host got on stage and said, “Close your eyes, and during this time of worship, ask God to show you what is distracting you from him right now.”
I did just that, and what I heard from him was the last thing I expected to hear.
“School,” he said, and I heard nothing else.
I was so troubled by this, so I began praying everyday asking what he meant by it. Was I supposed to drop out? Take less classes? Do less homework to focus time on him? (I wish this one was the case; I’d love a good excuse not to do homework lol.)
A week and a half later, I was tagged in a picture which the World Race posted on Facebook, by a friend who has previously been on the World Race: Gap Year who said he thought the girl in the picture was me. (Overwhelmingly 150/200 people agreed they thought it was me- even my own mom and siblings. And yes, I actually took a poll of this because I was so curious.)
I didn’t think much of the picture at first; I just thought it was cool that I found my doppelgänger! But 3 nights after I saw/was tagged in this picture, God spoke to me through a dream showing me the same picture again, and said “this looks like you, because it’s supposed to be you, and it is going to be you this time next year.”
The next morning, I half-jokingly asked my mom what her thoughts were on it, as she was running out the door for church, so she just said, “I don’t know,” but while she was at church, two more people brought the trip up to her, so she came home and said, “Maybe it is supposed to be for you!”
I spent another week and a half asking God about it. He finally stopped me and said, “If it’s meant to be, I will open the doors: you will be accepted, and I will provide the money for you. So, just take a step of faith and do your part, and then leave it in my hands.” Which is exactly what I did.
3 1/2 months later, here I am. After 4 months of fervently fasting and praying through this, I know without a shadow of a doubt, that this is what God wants me to do.
In a future post I will be sharing more confirmations God gave me while I was praying through this.
But for now, here I am saying, “Send me; I’ll go!” and I’m happy to say that I am going!
