Well, I don’t really plan on explaining in full detail what has been going on in my life, but I think a swift overview would bebeneficial in helping you understand what has been going on lately.
My internship this semester is working in Hospice, which is hard to say the least. To form relationships and then have those relationships be severed by death is really trying. Also, I’ve had some family stuff come up lately, some pretty rough spiritual warfare things, and just attacks at every turn. I’m not handling the processing of Hospice grief really well and the fact that I leave home in less than 3 month is looming over my head and my family’s head.
I thank Jesus so much that all of this that I am currently wading through 1) is not eternal, 2) is small in comparison to problems that other people are having, and 3) are only temporary! In the midst of these trials, I praise you Lord for the friends and the community that You have surrounded me with!
I got a chance to go home to Mobile and meet with some of my girlfriends that have gone to Tanzana with me in the past and really sit and talk about what Jesus is doing in our lives. We had a really unique chance to love and encourage each other, which is awesome becasue we don’t all live in the same city. The Lord used that time for healing for me and as a time of restoration in my heart.
So, I came back to Auburn and continued to feel like I was in some sort of funk. Still getting hit by death and by conflict and by worry and by Satan. I have been on my knees constantly and I feel like I am still in the midst of trial and trouble and tribulation. I am hurting and I am tired and I am ready for this moment to be over.
Even though I am hurting, and even though I don’t feel like myself, I still know that God is good. I praise Him that He is King in all seasons of my life-no matter if they’re hard or if they’re easy. Thanks be to my Savior who saved me from an eternity of damnation! Praise the Lord whose name carries hope and joy and love and grace!!!
My friend encouraged me with these verses today:
“But I trust in you, O Lord;
I say, ‘You are my God.’
my times are in your hand;
rescue me from the hand of my enemies
and from my persecutors!
Make your face shine on your servant;
save me in your steadfast love!’
Psalm 31:14-16
As you are praying for me and my journey, please pray that the Lord gives me strength and wisdom in my trials. Pray that training camp in the next few weeks would not only be a time of community, but also a time of restoration and hope. Pray that the Lord give me words and that He continue to meet with me as I seek His face.
Thanks for your prayers.
God bless.
–sisk
