my tent would survive til morning because the wind was so strong.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=YDcLS-RMVNE&feature=search (video of me at the Cliffs of Moher on our day off) windy. windy. windy.
The wind is
just like God. Sometimes it’s so hot and all you want is a little bit of wind.
Other times the wind is so strong you don’t even know what you’ll be left with
in the morning. You can’t see it, but you can feel it. Just like God. Sometimes
you pray and pray even just for a little gust and when it comes its so
refreshing. Sometimes you pray and pray for God to show up even just a little
bit- “Give me a sign you’re still here Godâ€�- when it comes its like a breath of
fresh air- just enough to keep you going. Other times its so overwhelming you
just want it to go away- go back to normal so your tent can stay standing and
you can sleep at night. Sometimes God’s presence is so physically present- body
tingling, shaking, can’t not smile, people speaking in tongues- it can be
overwhelming. (One night during feedback we didn’t even get to feedback because
one of my teammates came to us with some spiritual warfare that we knew had to
be dealt with right away. So we started praying over her and as soon as we started I just started shaking. My
whole body was shaking because I was so mad that these lies were being thrown
at her and taking a foothold on her life. I prayed and spoke with authority
because I knew I could and I knew I had to. Angels and demons are real people,
and Satan’s time was up.) If I didn’t have God in my life, if I didn’t have the
Holy Spirit dwelling inside me- lighting this passion to serve God and be crazy
in the process- I could be more normal. I’m not normal. I’m captivated by the
Holy Spirit.
God is starting to speak to us and answer our prayers through each
other. I think that I have been struggling with being quiet and listening to
God speak to me. So God has gotten creative and started speaking through my
teammates to me because He knows I’ll listen to them. Our two teams (Koja) are
definitely becoming a united community the way God intended us to be. For example,
my last blog ended with a prayer request for Michael. The morning after posting
that blog- we went into downtown and did a prayer walk. Mary and I stood
outside an Adult Store for an hour and a half, praying and speaking God’s word
loud and proud. All of a sudden Mary starts praying for Michael. She has
absolutely no idea who Michael could be, but the name Michael for some reason
had been placed on her heart and she knew she was supposed to pray for him. She
hadn’t read my blog or anything. I told her I knew exactly who she was praying
for. Another example: Last week we did a bible study on God’s promises. The
night before I had found one I liked but didn’t bookmark it. I’ve been
searching for it since and it was driving me nuts. Two mornings ago, Angela’s
day for morning prayer- she said that God gave her Jeremiah 33 to share with
us. She said that she read it and didn’t want to read that one to us because
its not your typical morning prayer type of passage. But she read it anyway,
and what do you know—verses 1-3 were what I’d been searching for and couldn’t
find.
These are just a few examples. We have The Awakening in about a week,
which is a big worship conference, and I think I’m finally ready for it. I’m
ready to let happen what I wouldn’t allow to happen at training camp. Holy
Spirit- have your way with me.
Prayer Request: Please be praying for Mel and Erik Olson as they mourn the loss of Deb. We all love you and miss you Deb.
