Being on the Race has put a whole new vocab in my brain. Words and phrases like “How’s your heart?”, shout out to my “squad mentor” on that one, launch, team time, be free, vulnerability, we aren’t afraid of your mess, fully funded, “can I borrow…” and so many more. One of the most popular words used on social media is “Sometimes…” So here is my blog about life on the Race thus far. Sometimes on the Race life is really hard.
Sometimes on the Race life is really great. Sometimes hard things come out that you never expected to tell anyone. Sometimes you meet someone on the street that you will never forget. Sometimes your ministry is really hard. Sometimes you really don’t want to do what you are having to do for the sake of your ministry. Sometimes you get pushed to the brink. Sometimes laughing with your team is the only thing that gets through your day. Sometimes you miss the states and it feels like the states doesn’t miss you. Sometimes all you feel like you can do is cry. Sometimes you swim two miles to a rock and it ends up being the best day ever. Sometimes you just have to have a pity party for yourself. Sometimes you sneak out and go get ice cream. Sometimes one email/text from home makes your good day even better. Sometimes calls with home aren’t long enough. Sometimes you turn into an adventurous spirit. Sometimes you become family with people you never expected to. Sometimes you learn to say really hard things and learn to receive really hard things with grace. Sometimes things happen that you wish you could change. Sometimes your heart breaks for someone you will never meet again. Sometimes you drink more coffee than ever before. Sometimes the smallest thing can make you cry, like a blended frappe in a mason jar. Sometimes your love for food grows and grows. Sometimes you eat a tarantula. Sometimes you freak out about a cute baby picture with your teammate. Sometimes you never get alone time, oh wait, that’s all the time. Sometimes you really want to be home but really want to be exactly where you are. Sometimes you grow into a person you never thought you could be. Sometimes the Lord pushes you so hard that all you can do is rely on Him. Sometimes He introduces you to people who impact your life forever. Sometimes you never want your quiet times to end. Sometimes He whispers in your ear the most incredible things. Sometimes He changes you and then challenges you in what He changed you in. Sometimes He sends you sisters to push you closer to Him when that’s the last thing you want to do. Sometimes life is really really messy and really really awesome.
This journey has been far from easy. I’m learning what it means to say the hard things and walking in confidence and boldness in speaking them. So this is me being real and raw. Pictures, blogs and vlogs can be misleading. They make it look like we are in another country changing lives, healing people and having deep conversations all day every day. That is so far from the truth. Sometimes your team hurts you and you hurt your team. Sometimes your ministry is really difficult. Sometimes you just wake up in a bad mood. Sometimes you just don’t feel like being happy. But the Lord has sent women in my life to push me through those hard times and point me back to Jesus. To allow me to feel what I am feeling but snap me out of my silliness and tell me everything is going to be okay.
Life isn’t always easy and fun like it sometimes seems to be but I know I am where I need to be, doing the things He has called me to do with the people He has handpicked for me. This blog post isn’t meant to convict you to go and do something, isn’t supposed to make you think about the things going on around the world. It is just simply to tell you what it is like sometimes on the Race.
