These words were spoken to one morning while I was sitting in a hostel listening to worship music.
“Stop worrying. Seek His kingdom and you will forget about the rest, forget about all the chaos of the world. Seek first and the rest will be added to you”
The last few weeks my mind has been wondering aimlessly, wondering to the future, wondering to the what if’s of life and wondering straight into a trap of the enemy. I was not taking every thought captive, I was letting the unpredictability of this season take control. I was letting life happen to me instead of happening to life.
As I sat down with God that morning, this is what I began to write down in my journal:
“Come back to the basics, my darling. Don’t over complicate this. Oh, how the enemy wants you to get stuck in the chaos of the world and not remember where we started. Just be, my darling. Trust me again. I will never let you down, I am the king of your heart. Go back to the basics. It is the way of the enemy making you think that you must continue living high to high or revelation to revelation. Darling, just as you desire quality time and shared experiences with friends, I desire that with you too. You’ve been running from me. Don’t be scared of what I am bringing into your life, for it is good.
Be with me again, sit with me. I cherish our quiet time together more than you know. We both need it. We need to nurture this relationship. I’m redefining passion, my darling. Let go of the lie that it is a feeling. Passion and relationships are a choice not a feeling.Choose me, seek me, and everything will be added to you. Trust me. Silence isn’t a sign of disengagement or lack of intimacy actually being able to sit in silence, in peace with one another is a deep sign of intimacy. I’m redefining intimacy, my darling. I will never force but I will always invite.
You lead me into dependence not desperation. You’ve lived so long in a state of desperation for the next best thing, the next mountaintop but I am showing you how to live in dependence and true contentment. The inheritance of a full and abundant life is already yours, stop scraping for bits, stop striving, rest in your sonship. When you are resting in your inheritance you are no longer living just as a consumer. Always trying to get and gain but you move into a covenant with The Most High. No longer living in spiritual obesity trying to hoard every little bit, in fear there won’t be enough but you rest in our covenant and you begin giving freely just as you have been given freely.
Oh my darling, what I have for you is beyond your wildest dreams. Trust me, seek me. You are pure and renewed, made into a new creation. It’s time you live in its fullness and let go of the past. Keep your eyes set on me and I will do the rest, my darling.
Choose me.”
“The more I seek you, the more I find you. The more I find you, the more I love you”
