Marvel again, my darling.
I sit at this cafe with a hipster feel to it,
white walls, Edison blobs, brick, and the smell of freshly brewed coffee surround me.
Grace, Liz, and I listen to a song called CageLess Birds, and the lyrics begin to speak over me,
“Standing on the shore of decision,
Looking into the face of adventure
Desire to abandon all I know
What pushes me is rooted
Somewhere between
Misunderstanding and knowing
Knowing that what I want to understand
Is not within my reach,
So I ponder my escape.
Not knowing what lies ahead
Adventure in theory is,
Is full of excitement
And bleeds with passion for life
Adventure in reality is full
Of breathless moments, silent nights,
And wounds that leave
Scares of memory on a heart.
Can I go the distance?”
All my senses heightened,
I taste the sweetness of the syrup over the French toast,
nostalgia hits me.
A flash of a memory floods through my mind,
Dad in the kitchen
whipping up his speciality:
breakfast for dinner.
The sound of clanging dishes, egg shells everywhere, and music playing
I’m reminded of the beauty of the seemingly insignificant moments in life,
but in reality being the signficant moments as we reflect back.
As I come back to the present,
I look around and smile.
I hear the tender words,
“marvel at life again, my darling”
The last 4 or 5 years of your life have been hard.
Breaking, stripping, abandoning, and renewal have been the constants in your life.
You’ve put in the work,
growing into who I’ve designed you to be.
We did it together,
I sat on the floor with you as you
laid defeated with tears flowing down your face.
I helped pick you up,
as you didn’t have any strength left to take another step.
I placed joy back into your heart,
as you began to smile again.
You came back to me even when you thought you went too far.
We walked through the valley together.
Hand in hand.
We absorbed knowledge and wisdom together pushing growth and renewal.
My darling, it is time to marvel again.
To enjoy the sweetness of life again.
You know who you are now, in its perfect design.
It’s time to marvel again at this life I’ve given you.
You are free, my darling
