It was prayed over me back in January that God will be placing arrows to lead me into my true identity but that He won’t just give me the big picture all at once. Throughout the course of seeking God more than I ever have before I can tangibly see God’s work in my life. I did listening prayer at my church back in March and the woman asked me if “beauty for ashes” had any meaning in my life. She said she can see me as a “woman of break through” and help lead other women through their own personal breakthrough. At the time it sounded great but I had no idea what any of it really meant.
Then training camp for the World Race came around 3 months later. Training camp has been amazing, life changing, draining, exhausting, full of laughter, and building a family in Christ. We dove into topics about discipleship, identity, law vs relationship with the Lord, shame, wounds, and grace. You name it we talked about it. These topics bring up pain, vulnerability, freedom, love, and exhaustion. I confessed secrets and wounds that I hadn’t ever spoken before out loud. I discovered so much of the pain and loneliness I have been feeling partly was a choice and partly the enemy using my past against me. Satan can use my past and words but he can not see my future. God looks at me as if I am the apple of His eye, as if I am already in my full completion. God sees me as perfectly and beautifully made.
Day 10 of training camp we had three breakout sessions we could choose from. The first one the called out was “sons and daughters” the next one they said was “beauty for ashes.” There it was BEAUTY FOR ASHES.
Adventure in Missions created a program called Beauty For Ashes. Their mission statement is empowering women to experience God’s restoration and hope through storytelling and community.
My heart literally jumped. If you know me, you know that I am so passionate about empowering girls and women to walk out into freedom and into their best and truest self. During the breakout session talking about Beauty for Ashes they began to say you can be the mouth piece of the Lord to lead other women through their own breakthrough. I’m telling you when you seek God He is seeking you 50 times harder. When you cry out to your Papa He is there to hold you and restore you.
I know this is just the beginning of God unraveling His Purpose for my life. But man is this ride with Him the best adventure I’ve ever been on.
