Atlanta.
A month of new beginnings…surrendering…listening…soaking…heartache…and
many tears.
I thought Atlanta would be the easiest to leave because it
is America; it is the last month of ministry, because I am so close to being at
home finally. Yet, Atlanta is the hardest to leave.
The Lord tore down so much of my crap and my walls this
month. I was constantly broken and constantly in the sprint position just
waiting to run from God and from what He was starting inside of me and stirring
up.
He told me:
~To let go of all my hurts and scars from the past
~To surrender my desires and my dreams and my wishes because
it is NOT about me, but what He wants
~That the hole inside of my heart was created by Him and for
Him only; that no matter how much of my own stuff I put into the hole it won’t
be filled because it was created only for Him
~To just take a bite out of what He has for me…it will be
sweet like a strawberry
~That I am relatable to others, not the off putting weird
girl that I make myself out to be
~That He is with me always
~To find the Jesus in people and to NOT look at the lies,
desires, sin, or flesh that they portray
~To love without restrictions and just give up all
preconceived notions
~To not be fearful because He will never leave me or forsake
me
~To give myself more grace because He has already forgiven me
and sent His son for me. He already loves me so don’t dwell on my past and what
I’ve done
~To fall face first on my knees in front of Him and worship
Him
~That I am starting a new season of my life
~To step into the plans He has prepared for me and not be
scared or anxious about what they are because He created them for me. I may be uncomfortable,
but it’s not about comfort for me, but about spreading God’s GLORY!
God, I am tired of running. I am tired of being the constant
position to run from you. So I stand and I wait in silence for your voice.
Speak Father because your daughter is finally silent and
listening!
