Last week I purchased and listened to the new Rend Collective album. The whole album is amazing and if you haven’t listened to it yet, DO IT. Their song “Just a Glimpse” has been speaking to me ever since I first heard it.
Just a glimpse of You
Sets my soul on fire forever
Just a taste of You
And my world’s alive with wonder
Just one touch from You
Fills my heart beyond all measure
Open my eyes, invade my life
My Lord
This was true for me when I was in the mission field. Just one glimpse every once and a while and I was a believer, I knew God was there, I knew he loved me, I was on fire, for a little bit. 24/7 community was intense. If I went a day without talking to Jesus I had people to pull me back and keep me accountable, and they would. If I went longer than a day, or a week, they weren’t afraid to sit me down and give me truth about how Jesus needs to be the center. If we aren’t seeking Him he can’t fill us up. I ran into that way more than I should have but my teams were gracious, just like Jesus is.
I’ve become comfortable since being back home. Comfortable in air conditioning. Comfortable in the Lazy Boy chair. Comfortable being in a hurry. Comfortable scrolling through Facebook, everyone else’s lives. Comfortable going through the motions. Comfortable staying inside, watching Netflix.
I’ve become uncomfortable in the heat. Uncomfortable when a grocery line isn’t going fast enough. Uncomfortable listening for the Holy Spirit. Uncomfortable in my prayer life. Uncomfortable keeping up with my journal.
Some of those are a little more acceptable than others, but if God is invading my life, I shouldn’t be comfortable doing nothing. Sitting around waiting for Him to plop someone in my lap that I can talk to about Jesus. This last week I have at home before heading to Georgia, I want to be uncomfortable. I want to listen to His voice. I want to get in my car and drive with no intentions. No time restraints. Go where the Spirit leads. Talk to someone who might need encouragement. I want to spend the first moments of my day with Him. I want His voice to be the loudest thing I hear all day, because I’m listening for it, and I want to continue living like that for the rest of my life.
Sometimes I find myself thinking about all the things I don’t have. I look at what other people have and think about what I would do if I had those things. It’s not what God has given me. He’s placed me where I am right now for a reason. He’s chosen me to go back into the mission field. He’s chosen me to continue raising support. He’s placed passions on my heart to be able to do what he created me to do. If I look at all that he hasn’t given me, I won’t be able to do what he’s called me to do. Sometimes I just need to be reminded of that.
What have you become comfortable in? What passions has God placed in your heart? Are you able to act on those passions or are you busy looking at what everyone else has, like I was/am? Make a list, pray about it, act it out.
I am currently 57% funded for CGA. Thank you so much to those of you who have given this far. If you haven’t had a chance to support me yet and would like to, click the link on the left hand side of this blog that says “support me.”
