Over this past crazy weekend (two fundraisers back to back ) I reflected a lot on how far I’ve come , and how I’ve gotten to this point in my life . How I am so blessed to have such amazing friends and family who have suffered through the exhaustion with me and how it all could be so different if not for one very important decision I made .
So let’s rewind a bit .
This week makes a full year that I have been attending church , this makes a year that I’ve felt at home… I found what I was searching for .
a year ago I was feeling anxious and knew I needed to change things, and to find a great church but I didn’t know what the criteria was of a great church , I mean how do you google a church that is on fire for Jesus , accepts everyone who walks in with wide open arms , and cares more about you then you think is possible . I didn’t even know all those things were an option, then I came across this website for Lakemount worship center. You might be wondering what I put in google , I put “young adult missions trips “ and I found my church, I found my home ,I found a church that has a young adults group every Monday with amazing people . and I ended up never going on one of their young adult missions trips, kind of ironic eh?
I remember seeing that information on Sunday evening around 10 , and making the decision I was going to go the next day . now my church is 45 minutes away from home , so this was a big decision for me . I had never been much further than st Catherine’s so Grimsby was practically a road trip ! . well I showed up cried in my car for about 30 minutes because I was so anxious . the enemy was doing anything in his power to stop me from walking in there . I sat in my car thinking they won’t like me , I’m not good enough , I’m not even a Christian , who do I think I am . I hadn’t yet realized who I was , I couldn’t fight those thoughts back with i’m a daughter of the king and I am good enough . but soon enough i would be able to
so I made the decision to tell my anxious thoughts to take the back seat . I walked into that room ready to puke , but I was greeted by so many amazing people , I sat during worship and thought what have I gotten myself into . I had never heard people speak In tongues , dance around during church service and scream at the top of their lungs . but during all this discomfort I couldn’t move , my heart was at peace while my mind was going crazy .
All this to say that decision which at the time seemed so small was actually the start of some of the biggest decisions I’ve made in my life . that day changed my life , and will continue to affect me forever .
he has placed people who teach me how to love more everyday , and who teach me the true point of being a christian.that its not about looking perfect on the outside , but showing people your mess so you can fix it together , they’ve tought me How to be on fire everyday not just Sundays during service . for this I am forever grateful
So a year after that decision and what exactly has changed?
-for starters I found myself , I found the person God always wanted me to be . I don’t feel lost anymore , i’m not anxious anymore because I know who god has called me to be and who he is . the unknown doesn’t scare me anymore , instead i’m at peace knowing God has already walked that path for me .
– I no longer cower away from challenges , but I look at them and pray for Gods strength because I know I cant do this alone .
– 3 months after starting to attend church I accepted Jesus
–4 months after that I was rebaptized , this time my choice
–3 months after that I finally made the step to go on the world race .
I guess you could say this has been the most amazing year of my life , and you would be right ! this year I found truth and let go of the lies the enemy like to tell me . I realized there’s so much more i’m meant to do in my life and so many more people i’m meant to impact . it all starts with saying YES to God and NO to the lies .
with that said , when there’s a hard decision in front of you , who will you say yes to ?
update!
my $3500 deadline is in two weeks , if you feel led to give please click the donate button at the top of the page !
we’ve raised about $2500 , there’s only $1000 to go to hit the deadline we’ve got this !
if 10 people give $100 i will hit my goal on time
or if 20 people give $50 i will hit my goal. please consider donating . i know this is all in Gods hands, doesn’t mean i cant do it without you !
