So my intentions were to write my next blog post after training camp. But God has different plans …
So after a great night with my young adults group last night , my definition of great night is getting God slapped (yes I said it. And I love that term ) and being able to pour into friends lives and remind them of the plans God has for them. While doing this God showed me so many things that I needed to deal with as well . But thankfully he places a community of people around me who embrace the mess of what life is. And I couldn’t be more thankful , so after driving home last night and just feeling like I wanted to cry and process all that had happened only an hour before hand my mom walks up to me and tells me an hour earlier someone tried to break into our house …
I felt my stomach sink
I wanted to cry
and
puke all at the same time .
All I could think was how could I not have been here to protect her !
Then I started to think of what I’m going to do on the race , I always feel like I have to save and protect everyone. Eventhough I know this isn’t true it’s how I feel . Well the enemy knows this and boy does he like to use it .needless to say this was a low blow, and I wasn’t in the mood to accept it .
Once I calmed down from the shock I realized I was afraid , I was afraid to go to sleep , i was afraid to leave my mom alone , I was afraid of the outside world . For those moments I was terified peralized by fear .
That’s when God spoke back everything I spoke to a friend of mine last night . I had been telling my friend how fear is the enemy’s cheap atack on us and how we have the choice to listen to it or to tell it off .
This is when it hit me.
God has been preparing me all night for this ! all the hard conversations the emotionally draining ones , the breakthrough ones. All of it was in preparation for what the enemy would try and break us with.
But he didn’t break me he made me stronger!
I went to bed and no longer cried of fear but praised God for us still being safe and un harmed . Praised him that he doesn’t give us a spirit of fear , praised him that he took it all away . The immense fear I felt was gone after that , he took it all! Because that’s what he does , he takes all the lies and replaces them with amazing truth , love and peace!
I realize this comes a week before training camp , I’m almost ready , life is feeling good and this happens . This was meant to derail the train , but it set it back on course full speed ahead . So that just re affirms in me how much God has called me to this. If satan is working this hard to take it away there is something incredible waiting for me in Georgia. And I can’t wait to find out what it is.
if you would like to partner with me in prayer , pray that the cheap attacks of the enemy have no hold on my family .Pray that this doesn’t bring fear into my house , but bring the peace and truth of who God is .
And pray that Jesus reveals himself to the man who tried to break in, show him he can’t run from the amazing life that God has for him that doesn’t include stealing .Pray that this is a turn around moment and that the enemy no longer has control of his actions . I pray for his life to be dramatically changed , for him to experience the love that Jesus has for him too
