Why would anyone ever want to be a blind servant? I just could not figure this out. In Isaiah 42, God refers to His servant as being blind. This really confused me because I would think that God would want, as well as enable, His servants to see extremely clearly. To know Him and know His way. However, He quickly showed me that this part of scripture is showing the importance of trusting Him.
There is a famous saying, “Love is blind”. I’ve never understood why people said this until I started dating in high school. Trusting someone can definitely be a hard thing to do, especially if all of your faith and hope are put into the wrong area in life. I don’t have it all figured out yet, but I have learned so much about the involvement of love in trust. Love is blind because it requires trust. Trust requires faith in something that might not be visible, which is where the idea of blind faith comes in. This seems to be a reoccurring concept in my life lately but that just confirms that God is teaching me through it. I don’t refer to my faith in Him as blind because I can’t see Him, but more so because I can’t always see what He is doing or why.
Not understanding things fully is a HUGE part of being a Christian. God doesn’t call us to be “Bible Thumpers”; to learn about and master everything in the bible. He doesn’t expect us to have everything all figured out, ever, in our lives. So when we are frustrated that we don’t understand current circumstances or thoughts or feelings, that might be exactly where He wants us. Though that’s even more frustrating, I try my best to trust Him most in these times. Trust that He is good. That He works all things for the good of those who love Him (Romans 8:28). That He is completely in control. That He is faithful.
He loves when we are in these positions in life because that is when we are most dependent on Him instead of ourselves. And this is what is best for us. I don’t know how many times I’ve thought that my ideas or plans are what are best for me, only to find out that when I’ve gone after those plans, they end in disaster. Then the times that I can see my plans and God’s plans and I choose His over mine, I can always see that that was what was best for me in the end. It’s crazy how this works because it’s hard to imagine a God so large that He can know us this well to always know what is best for us.
All of this might be hard to accept, I know it has been for me this month, but I’ve found comfort in the fact that He really does know what is best for us. I’m not sure where I found this quote but I feel that it explains the idea of “living out” what it looks like to be a blind servant:
“…everyday of our lives we may quiet our discouragement with the comfort that comes from the knowledge of Gods infinite wisdom. If we are his children we can know that he is working wisely in our lives to bring us into greater conformity to the image of Christ… This is what it is to be loved and to
know that the promise was that when everything fell, we'd be held…
the trials of this life, are really Your mercies in disguise.”
I know times can get hard when we can't see exactly what God is doing in our lives, but those can be the best times because He calls us to step out of our comfort zones and just trust His plans over ours. I pray that you can have the courage to trust Him because it might be that moment that your life changes forever.
