If I went home for no other reason it was so that…The Lord could reassure me of his faithfulness and reaffirm within me that he is faithful in keeping his promises.
It was mid – August and I was starting this thing called support raising. I have never had to raise support before in my life and to be my first time raising support it was an awfully terrifying amount needed. I was facing a lot of opposition, every time I turned around people were telling me that in this economic time it would be extremely difficult to raise the rather large sum of money that was needed in order to be obedient to what The Lord was calling me to do. I understand and appreciate peoples heart to be realistic with me, but there simply was nothing realistic to me about what God was calling me to do. It was absolutely crazy, carry my entire life in a backpack, sleep out of a tent for 11 months, eat random foods that I don't like and take freakin cold showers out of a bucket in some makeshift bathroom simply to make much of the name of Jesus across 11 countries. Yea right, in my mind this was absolutely nuts and took the ballsy kind of faith that I only read about in scripture to believe that Jesus would be calling me to this.
I consistently heard lies from the enemy, he would shout at me and say, You are crazy you will never be able to raise all this money. You wont be able to stay the whole 11 months, what happens when you don't raise your support? How embarrassing that will be. I want you to understand it would of been really easy for me to allow satan to have a hay-day with my heart. In fact many days he did. I doubted in the provision of God and I doubted in what he had promised me.
One day in late August while I was praying through some of my concerns, more or less fears, I heard The Lord whisper, I have unlimited amount of resources, my economy is not in recession, the amount of money you need is nothing for me. And then came the promise that I sheepishly held onto. You will be fully funded before you leave US soil.
Some of you I had shared this promise with but truthfully not many of you ever heard me share this. You see I believed that The Lord had promised me this, but I was afraid of fully trusting in this enough to proclaim it from the mountain tops. I mean after all what if I leave US soil and I am not fully funded, did I hear God wrong? Am I a fool for believing this? In my mind the risk was to high to verbalize such a promise to numerous amounts of people. Even in the midst of Gods promise, I found room to doubt.
So this my story. January 11 I sat on a plane from Washington DC, to San Jose, Costa Rica needing over 6,800 dollars in order to be fully funded. My entire thought process was, Lord I trusted you, You promised me I would be fully funded. So unless I am going to check my account tomorrow and see that you miraculously provided for me you have broken your promise. I told some people what you had promised me, what if I had told more people? So here is my question Lord, who is the fool, am I the fool? Or are you the fool? Because for the last four months I have held onto this promise and I am leaving US soil and I am not yet fully funded. I believe that you will provide and I trust that you will continue to provide. But
So if I flew home for no other reason it was so that…The Lord could reassure me of his faithfulness and reaffirm within me that he is faithful in keeping his promises. On February 23, as I boarded the plane from Charlotte NC to Managua, Nicaragua to be reunited with my team, I was (pledged to be) fully funded. The Lord was faithful on his promise, before I left US soil I was fully funded. It was not in my timing but in his. The Lord in his sovereignty knew that I would have to fly home long before I ever knew this. When he made me that promise I am certain that he knew exactly how it would all work out.
Many times in scripture God makes a promise to people and then they have to act upon it, and every time he is faithful in keeping his promise! Not once has God ever gone back on a promise. What has God promised you? Are you believing and trusting him? Or are you allowing doubt to hold you back from believing God for what he has promised you?
2 Peter 3:9 "The Lord is not slow in keeping his promises"
More to come!
