This month has been awesome so far!!
We started out the month with an all squad debrief. It was where all of us on the squad came together and stayed together, rested, and had knowledge imparted on us from our squad mentor and coaches.
I am a verbal processor. I need to talk out what I am thinking about in order to figure it out. One of my teammates allows me to use her to verbally process with. 😉 One day at lunch, I verbally processed with her and figured out something pretty big.
Growing up, I never had a core of good, close friends. I was and still am everybody’s friend. I don’t like to have a group. I like to wander. I would refer to myself as a “floater”. Not in one group of friends, but friends with everyone.
This is how I always refer to myself when telling a person about me.
I am a person that loves examples and I have one for you!!
When L Squad came together for the first time at training camp last July, I knew everyone. I had looked at everyone’s Facebook pages and I was able to run into someone in the Atlanta airport, before training camp, and say the person’s entire name. Any L squad soul can attest to that 🙂 In most cases, I was the first person to talk to someone on the squad- mostly through a Facebook message. Except for Martha. Sorry Marth. I wanted to be everyone’s friend.
Absolutely not a bad thing. Just showing that even on the Race I started off with my “floater” characteristics.
I was put into my team. Burning Joy. Most of the girls were not really okay with our all girls team. That was a bummer to me, because I am a totally extrovert and I feed off of the energy of others.
More to the point, on the first couple of travel days- Burning Joy would sit together in the middle of the bus… and there is Ashley in the back, being a “floater”. Not a big deal- it’s just how it was.
More recently, on a travel day, TLC/Burning Joy will be together, and Ashley will be in that group.
A travel day is just the example I used. It’s not like teams should or shouldn’t sit together or anything. It is just to show that I used to not have really good friends, I would “float” and hang with everyone. Now, that is not how I am. I have close friends.
I am not a “floater” anymore!
It’s not necessarily a big deal- it’s just something I learned and figured out about myself, since Werny let me process with her.
And I love it!
I am not a floater anymore!
<3 Ash
