I don’t want to remember Cambodia by how hot it is.
I don’t want to look back on missing a chance to step out with a boldness to be obedient to God’s call.
What does it take to have that special memory? If I get an opportunity, will I be prepared? What if I miss my chance to step out? My head spins with many questions like these.
I begin to doubt myself. How could I not know these answers after being out here for 10 months?
With thousands of questions in my head and absolutely NO answers, I stand in awe of God.
So, I am at my first church service in Cambodia and falling more in love with God than I ever thought possible.
I am in awe of how great God is. I can feel His presence stronger than ever, and I look around and see a lot of people who just love Jesus. You can see it in their eyes, faces, and worship.
I begin to tear up. I’m confused and don’t understand why I’m becoming emotional. I then realize how blessed I have been to experience worship around the world. Each culture has its own worship style, but each one ushers in the presence of God.
And at that moment, I receive answers.
I don’t have to look for these special moments to make a difference. I just need to be an open vessel to usher in the presence of God. I have to continue to die to myself and gain more of Him.
Instead of searching for all the correct answers, I have decided to simply be that vessel. I am striving to wake up daily and clothe myself with more of Him. As I die to myself and gain more of Him, I believe I will receive more of the answers I’m looking for.
