So I got a chance to go back home to Nigeria (Nig) not too long ago. It was good to be able to just get reconnected with old faces and in a way, get re-cultured; I had a great time. However, I feel like I took a step backwards with regards letting go of me as part of my commitment to this missions’ trip.
Let me explain; going back to Nig, I got to re-connect with friends from long ago, reminisce about the good old days, but even more, we got to talking about our lives, the current environment we live in, ambitions and the future, amongst others. I have great family and friends, blessed, ambitious and bright. With so much talking, it became very easy to get carried away in the business ideas, strategies and wealth creation opportunities that seem to be so readily available for the corresponding work needed to implement. To see what some of my family, friends and age mates are doing and are getting into, the feeling of being left behind, wasn’t too far behind. And just like that, I let my guard down. I lost my focus on Jesus, His calling and where He has me right now. I’m not saying ambition or the business ideas, strategies, trying to build some kind of a solid foundation for the future or any of that stuff in its right measure is bad, but for me, knowing where He has me, I took my eyes of Him and began to sink.
A few of my teammates have recently written about their fears on going on this trip, I have mine, and after accepting I would be giving up my career amongst others, I really did feel this was a fear I was past. I had entrusted it all to Jesus and moved on. However, I was scared yet again. I had allowed it to creep back in, slow. Through this though, I realize like everything else, I have to keep guard, renewing my commitment to the now He has me working on, and dying to myself daily/periodically, continually entrusting my dreams and desires to Him, as they continue to align with His will for my life.
So you see, I had a great, great time in Nig, especially getting to see my nieces, what a blessing. But I do feel like I lost focus and took a step back. But that’s the amazing thing, the Father is faithful, and Jesus has His hand stretched out asking me to grab it and get my heart back on Him. I know this is where I’m supposed to be, and this is where He has me right now. I need not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will take care of itself.
With that though, I really do need your continued prayers and support. And it is very much appreciated.
