This was initially written when I was flying to India last month. It was meant to be a letter to a friend whom I love dearly that was having a hard time with some changes occurring in life.
After writing it though , I realized that this could apply to and be encouraging to anyone going through something similar.
So now it’s a blog post….Enjoy 🙂
My Dearest Friend ,
I’m sitting on the plane right now having a totally intense and raw moment with the Father as I stare outside this airplane window.
It feels like we are flying through outer space because if you look outside it is PITCH BLACK and we are very clearly surrounded by a sea of stars!
I’ve never flown at night and had that happen.
Normally there are clouds around or too much light from the cities below drowning out their light to be able to appreciate them.
So…I’m staring out the airplane window and completely memorized with the beauty of the night sky and the stars surrounding me and am so grateful to have woken up and thought to open the window . In that moment I begin to feel the fathers love and am in awe of Him and His creation and just so grateful for waking up right at this moment to appreciate the splendor of His sky.
He knows that I am a sucker for a clear night sky…
I am so grateful for the moment and am so completely engrossed in it that I begin to think…this experience is exclusively for me. ( maybe a tad selfish but I was feeling the feels ).
Then , I hear the Holy Spirit whisper ….”This IS for you , and this month is for you “
What?!
What do you mean this month is for me?! …No ,this is all about you God!
????Who am I even that you are mindful of me????
*Commence wrestling with this idea , only to eventually concede into a place of just receiving and gratefulness *
In the middle of this I’m reminded of a concept surrounding gift giving , or giving in general.
When someone gives you something, you can’t help but have the gut feeling or reaction that you want to return that kindness to them … whether that be in the form of a literal gift or in the form of an act of kindness or service.
The idea of this moment or month being for me , makes me want to just do so much more for you God.
And then I start to think about how literally our ENTIRE LIVES are designed for us.
How every single moment, interaction and circumstance we find ourselves in is designed with a purpose and plan ….and how incredibly SPECIAL that is.
How ,literally, every single situation is no suprise to God and is always under his control… And what an amazing gift that is.
And how this is just a glimpse.
….just the sweetest morsel of what awaits us in eternity.
To be in a continual state of recieving love from the Father and returning it to Him … The way He intended originally.
And in the meantime we get to experience the excitement of discovering newer and deeper levels of this peace and love if only we lay our selves and our flesh down.
And how slowly but surely we can reach more of heaven on earth.
#onearthasitisinheaven
Anyways , I got a tad excited there ( I wish you had seen this sky ).
All this being said , feelings and emotions come with change or with the unknown.
FEEL THEM ALL.
Feel them hand in hand WITH Him.
Lay them at his feet
Then rest in the fact that whatever the circumstance, in His book “were written, every one of them, the days that were formed for me, when as yet there was none of them.”
We can rest in knowing that His intentions are always FOR us and once again that He is greater than anything that life can throw at us.
When I think on these things all my heart can desire to do is to give Him my best.
My hope and prayer is that you will come to a place of being able to rest in that and find peace in uncertainty because of the that.
That it would be about you and Him and no one else … Because who better to entrust your life to than the very person that loved you so much He breathed life into you.
Plus , my bet is on Him knowing what is better for me than what I think I want anyways 
Okay that is all! 🙂
Love ,
Arlene
“O Lord, you have searched me and known me!
You know when I sit down and when I rise up; you discern my thoughts from afar.
You search out my path and my lying down and are acquainted with all my ways.
Even before a word is on my tongue, behold, O Lord, you know it altogether. You hem me in, behind and before, and lay your hand upon me.
Such knowledge is too wonderful for me; it is high; I cannot attain it.
Where shall I go from your Spirit? Or where shall I flee from your presence? If I ascend to heaven, you are there! If I make my bed in Sheol, you are there! If I take the wings of the morning and dwell in the uttermost parts of the sea, even there your hand shall lead me, and your right hand shall hold me.
If I say, “Surely the darkness shall cover me, and the light about me be night,” even the darkness is not dark to you; the night is bright as the day, for darkness is as light with you. For you formed my inward parts; you knitted me together in my mother’s womb.
I praise you, for I am fearfully and wonderfully made.
Wonderful are your works; my soul knows it very well.
My frame was not hidden from you, when I was being made in secret, intricately woven in the depths of the earth. Your eyes saw my unformed substance; in your book were written, every one of them, the days that were formed for me, when as yet there was none of them.
How precious to me are your thoughts, O God! How vast is the sum of them! If I would count them, they are more than the sand. I awake, and I am still with you.”
Psalms 139:1-18 ESV
