Since training camp, it’s felt like God decided to speed time up, and I’ve been overwhelmed with everything I need to do. The other day, I sat down to try to clear my head and journal…well, this is all I wrote, word for word: “Sometimes I feel so overwhelmed I just want to scream! Ugh! Jesus help me! Please.”
This morning, I made an effort to wake up early and spend intentional time with God. I read through a chapter in II Corinthians, and jotted a few notes; but I couldn’t help but have that uncomfortable feeling I get when I know God has something specific to say. As I sipped my oversized cup of coffee, I noticed a small detail that’s easily missed. Each time I gripped the handle of my cup, the muscles in my hand tensed, while the rest of me was relaxed.
Tension is not always a bad thing. It creates movement, and change (in this case it was allowing me to drink my cup of coffee).
Embrace the tension in your life and these circumstances, I heard the Holy Spirit telling me. It’s not that you’ve done anything wrong to allow the tension you’ve been feeling, but I’m using it to move and change you.
It was such a relief to feel the freedom to embrace the tension in my life right now and know that God is using it as a tool for movement and change! This was also a reminder of the invitation to rest in Him during this season of preparation. Although my body may be having to run around and tie up all the loose ends, my spirit can remain in a position of rest in Christ because I trust what He’s doing in my life.
I love how God uses the simple things to teach lessons to His children—He really is always speaking!
