I
am
at
war.
When I applied for this mission, I knew I would experience spiritual warfare.
As I am doing God’s work, Satan wants to prevent me. He attacks the strong and committed. I always like to think that you know you’re doing something right if you feel Satan attacking.
Well, I’m there. Moving from a tight church community in Texas back to Orange County is a rough transition. Connecting to a church community here has been harder than I imagined, and I often find myself just spending my days commuting back and forth from home to work. (I’m currently waitressing and saving money.)
I started to lose my purpose. I started to become apathetic. I started to lose sight of the amazing vision the Lord has given me. I started to put down my shield of faith.
But we have a constant, never changing and always faithful God.
Little by little, He has been chipping away at my layers of arrogance and humbling me during this transitional period.
THIS IS NOT ABOUT ME.
I’ve been in this state complaining about what I don’t have right now. Sure, being without community is difficult and if I were here longer than I could be more intentional about investing.
BUT JESUS IS ENOUGH.
HE IS ALWAYS ENOUGH.
I just started interning in the Orphan Care Initiative at Saddleback Church. I wanted to be around ministry and other believers, so God led me back to the same department I interned with a few years back.
Yesterday I was at a support group for parents who have adopted, and I met a beautiful woman named Jasmine. She asked me my story, told me hers, prayed over me, and encouraged me more than I can put into words. During our conversation, we both exclaimed hallelujah! & amen! more times than I can count.
He is our Savior. AMEN!
He gives us a story of redemption. Hallelujah!
We are His beloved children. AMEN!
Jesus bled and suffered so our sin could be washed clean. Hallelujah!
We are so undeserving, but He is full of grace. AMEN!
He is mighty and worthy of all praise. Hallelujah!
He never leaves us,
always loves us,
and is in control of all creation.
HALLELUJAH & AMEN!
She told me to put on the armor of Christ.
Defend myself against the attack.
Use the sword of truth.
Somehow, she knew.
This was not a gentle reminder, this was the Spirit telling me to WAKE UP.
I need the Lord’s armor and I need to be actively fighting for Him.
Training camp is one week away, and it’s about to get real.
Fast.
I’m trying to go into the week with no expectations and no fear, because I really just have no idea what it will be like. A former racer gave me three pieces of wisdom that I’m currently praying for –
Be open.
Be patient.
Trust that He wants you to be more like Him.
So I’m focusing on those three things, and letting Jesus do the rest.
Will you cover me in prayer as I head to training camp October 10-18?
Be praying for…
—> The Spirit to lead me
—> For Him to become more, and I to become less
—> The leaders/staff as they form race teams
—> Patience in understanding His will
—> Discipleship training & patience with being humbled
—> My team and I reaching fundraising deadlines
I am about 50% funded!
Praise God!
Thank y’all for your encouragement!
I still have a long way to go, so if you would prayerfully consider joining my support team,
click the support me tab on the left! Donations can be a one time gift or monthly!
