Transitions are a weird thing. I have two weeks (not even) left with Cru and school at Cal Poly Pomona until I graduate and move into full-time preparation and fundraising for the World Race. Cru is the ministry and people that I have poured my heart and soul into for the last three and a half years; they are and have been a large part of my life for so long. Over the last month, I’ve realized that I need to begin my exit from this ministry, however, especially as new leadership steps up; and at the same time, I want to stay connected enough during this remaining time to enjoy my last moments with my Cru family…all while constantly having to think about the World Race and prepare/fundraise for that. Again, transitions are weird.
But beyond transitions, preparing for this next chapter of my life feels a little more odd. It is as if I am on a dark path and I can see my end goal of where I need to be; but in between me and it, I have no idea what it looks like or where I’m supposed to go. This past month I’ve had no choice BUT to trust God to guide me to my next step, which He has so faithfully shown me when and where to move next. With fundraising, there is about a million different directions I could go, and I find myself easily overwhelmed with what to do first, especially because I have an extremely limited amount of hours I can devote to fundraising since I’m still in school. (Yay for the quarter system!)
On top of that, my first deadline of $3,500 due by Saturday, June 29th is fast approaching and there is A LOT of money that needs to come in for me to reach it. About a week ago, I reached a point of partial mental breakdown and the general feeling that this isn’t going to happen, that the money isn’t going to come in. As I sat down to spend some time with God, what I realized I was feeling was that I don’t have enough time to devote to fundraising in order to get the money to come in on time, that what I was doing couldn’t possibly be enough. I had let this become about me bringing in the money versus trusting that the World Race is what God wants me to be doing, and therefore, it is God who will bring in the funds. And who was I to question that God’s ability to provide through the labor and efforts I am able to give Him? In my time with Him, God affirmed in me that if I am diligent and obedient with the things He asks me to do for fundraising, He will bring the money in.
And the number one thing God has asked me to do? To be willing to boldly ask for others to give.
So this I ask of you: if you are reading this post right now, please stop. I ask that you take a moment (yes, this moment, this second) and ask God how He would have you respond to my need of financial support. And I pray that you would respond as He desires you to, because for me, this is not about me right now; this is an opportunity for you to be obedient to God. If that means He is asking you to give financially with one-time or monthly gifts, I ask you to be obedient to that. If it means a commitment to praying for my team and I; please do, your prayers are such great blessings for me! And if you need to talk to me more about my heart for this trip before you’re willing to commit; please, please, please do not be afraid to contact me! Seriously, I love people and I love connecting and sharing my heart for God and would love to talk to you! 🙂
You guys, there is a God who created you, who loves you, and desperately wants to be in a relationship with you so that He may know you intimately and bless your life. I pray that for all of you who read this blog, that no matter what your decision (even if that is a decision to do nothing), that you would walk away from this blog knowing that God loves YOU (yes, you!) and will take care of you just as He is going to take care of me…we just have to allow Him to do so.
God bless you lovely people and I thank you for your interest in my life to be willing to read my blog posts! 🙂
