I am sorry; I am sorry for lying to you. I am sorry for promising blogs and pictures and not living up to my word. Internet was a hard thing to find last month and it’s not an excuse by any means, but it overwhelmed me every time I was able to get internet. Blogging just was not a priority of mine. I was lazy; I did not feel like pulling my computer out and trying to explain what the Lord was doing in me. The worst part is: this month was one of the most amazing months I have had on the World Race.
I know the Lord is always working whether we know it or not, and sometimes it takes a month or two until we see what He was actually doing within us during any given month, but in Malawi I felt and saw the change within me as it was occurring.
Confidence: I have struggled a lot in my walk with Christ to have confidence in my knowledge of God’s word and to share it. When we arrived in Malawi, we had our month 6 debrief and I had one of my good friends Ashley pray confidence over me. Truth be told, I actually forgot that she prayed that into me until the end of the month. The Lord showed up in so many amazing ways the entire month, revealing how any confidence I have is not of my own, but of Him. One day in particular, after a huge healing/prayer morning, a group of us just decided to just call out good qualities we saw in each other. My sister Monica told me that she sees how much of God’s word that I do know and that I should claim that over myself instead of saying how much doubt I have in my understanding of it. I agreed and then went on my way not really giving it much thought, but 20 minutes later one of my friends was reading a verse but forgot the end of it. I finished the verse for her, told her it was Isaiah 41:10, and that it was my favorite verse. Well folks, guess who happened to be next to me: Monica. She looked at me and said “See, told ya!”
I could not argue with her because what she said to me was total truth! Then later that day or the following day, I was with three other people just praying for the property. God took me on a mini-journey through the Bible, and as I was sharing with the group, God gave me a verse from 1 Peter 4:8; “Love covers a multitude of sins.” I kid you not, I had no idea this was a verse until I read it. This verse was spoken a lot that week but I thought it was just one of those “Christian sayings.” Yet again the Lord showed me that if I do completely surrender everything to Him, He will use me and it doesn’t matter if I have read the Bible cover to cover 20 times; all that matters is that God uses me to share His word when He wants to. I walked away from Month 7: Malawi with so much confidence and trust in the Lord and a desire to be more obedient to Him. In addition to confidence, the Lord taught me so much about worship through the beauty of His creation. Stay tuned for more details in my next blog; and until then, enjoy this sneak preview.
God is truly beautiful!
Breath taking!!
