So after a few months I’m back. I’ve burnt through the excuses for not blogging. No internet (still don’t have internet) no computer, my phone doesn’t like this site, I suck with words, no one cares anyways, you name it and I’ve used it to talk myself out of blogging. I just quit caring bout these. (I did get a surface which is difficult to use until I get a keyboard for it.) I need to write even if it only helps one person, and I need to write to help me think/process.
A few of us from my squad are talking bout obedience. They have done such a good job I don’t have anything new to talk about. I wish I knew my way round here better, cause I see a neat little flow chart for the process of obedience. See, I’m a visual learner. Actually I learn best hands on, but even then I have to see it to understand it. I’m gonna attempt this real quick…
Hearing–> Verifying/understanding–>doing
Haha it actually worked.
Ok lets talk about what obedience means to me. I have a military concept of obedience. You are given a directive or command, and you do it, period. (lol i like the irony of saying period next to a period.) Why you do it doesn’t matter so much as that you actually do it. While I don’t think that’s the most accurate view of obedience, its what my brain can handle atm. I’m still trying to figure this out.
We did a DVD series called Xplicit Gospel by Matt Chandler. In one of the sessions he posed a question, “What if God looks at us and our spiritual walk as a father looks at his child taking their first steps?” he then went on to illustrate his kids first steps. He took 3 before falling and there was a lot of celebrating and screaming and whatnot cause HE WALKED! When in reality he took 3 steps and fell. If you or I would do that something would be wrong.
So I thought to apply that thought process to obedience. Does that mean we can disobey, I think not. Even the baby in the illustration grows up and is expected to walk. To me it means I have to try (the baby had to attempt to walk or he wouldn’t have taken any steps.) When I fail, realize and accept God’s grace and mercy, get back up and try again.
Another thought I had was that just following a command isn’t enough by itself. I have to have a good attitude about it and not grumble and complain, or my fav, smart off. To me its like if my body obeys, but my heart does not, then I wasn’t truly obedient. This is really hard for me. I hate to admit it, but I struggle a lot with pride. I hate being wrong and I always want to do it better (my way lol).
Welp I hope you enjoyed reading this. Maybe you learned something, or maybe you can teach me something… either way, lemme know. I actually enjoyed writing, as hard as it was.
