God woke me up at 5:30am the beginning of the month in Kenya. When I woke up, there was a message on my heart for my squad. I knew I had to speak it to them. I have been asked to blog about it, so here is the message God spoke. It’s all messy on my page because I wrote it in the dark 🙂
“I don’t know about you, but I came on this race to seek the heart of God. I didn’t come to serve other people, or be broken beyond belief. I came to know my God better. I gain His perspective of the world, the understand the movements of His heart and then to move and act from that intimate relationship.
If I am looking at the King, Kingdom culture is very close to follow. But if I am looking at myself and you I am missing the whole reason I am here. When I know my God and love Him, then I love the things that He loves, and I automatically want to do what He is asking me to do. I want to play with those children who are sick. I want to build that building that will become a house or a place of worship. I want to preach that sermon because it just means I get to talk more about my God. So my challenge in all of this is please please please do NOT miss out on knowing the heart of God.
We have been given this time to know Him in greater, more intimate ways than ever before in our lives. Do not miss it. Let us walk out of our stupid comparisons that we have with one another. Let us sit in His love and gain part of His heart. I know that we have time in these months of ministry. Life moves so slooow in comparison to our lives at home. So what are you doing with that time? If you do not desire time with God, then ask Him to GIVE you that desire… ultimately we cannot even want God without God living inside of us.
So N- squad, more than us being known as a squad of honor, I want us to be known as a squad… a tribe… a people who KNOW and LOVE their God!!”
I knew that God would one day have me speaking to our squad as a whole but it was always about me. I couldn’t get past myself enough to get past my nervous feelings and insecurities. But now is the time! Now is the time to move past myself and start speaking words of truth to others. Now is the time to walk into the destiny that God has been calling me into. I won’t relent because He won’t relent! I will not stop until the day I come panting into the throne room exausted from the life I have lived and I hear Him say, “well done…” I will love until I can’t love anymore- and then I will let Him love through me. I will forgive. I will stand up when I get knocked down. I will stand on the foundation of His Word and His love and His truth. I will pursue His heart because there is no greater treasure. I will pursue His character because it is infinite and worthy of praise and glory. I will pursure His face because I want His presence. I will pursue HIm because I constantly hear HIm saying… I won’t relent!
